I don't know what to do with myself lately. I'm not sure that I would like to make new friends, however staying indoors has definitely taken its toll. One doesn't necessarily have to be with friends to go out, I guess it's just a lack of motivation...when I'm in my cave, it is very easy to get comfortable and never leave. Intoxicating ( Read more... )

my past postings are stupid. i am embarrassed ( Read more... )

how i lost my beanie ( Read more... )

i wasted an entire day again ( Read more... )

every time i look back at my entries i ask myself what the hell my deal was. why would i post all the shit that i did, how embarrassing ( Read more... )

as soon as i get the courage to get out of this house i will go to work.
work in 15 minutes. can i stay up and not let my imagination take over this time...it will be a challenge.

im not sure if i like being a grown up.

p.s. i've missed you.

today is Jai's birthday and he included me to accompany he and his friends to a karaoke bar tonight. me...singing, this is going to be good ( Read more... )

cats are so fucking needy lemme say that ( Read more... )

i havent talked to kevin or seen him for a while. i havent answered his calls and the times i do, i speak in a tone which lets him know im still upset with him. he's going to beg. i just dont feel like talking to him at the moment ( Read more... )

yeah it still hurts. i dont know if by repeating every cliche "feel better about yourself" saying helps but its worth a shot. you win some, you lose some. i cant understand why im still dwelling on this one. maybe its because i thought it could have been different this time around. me and him, we have a connection damnit! something good would ( Read more... )