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last night i went insane. i broke. i literally fucking snapped. i couldn't take his shit anymore so i exploded and cussed out the hans man. it started out with him asking to use my phone at 10. i said yes, whatever no big deal. he said it would take 25 minutes. well 25 minutes go by, i he says it's going to take longer. so i wait. and wait. and wait. 2 hours while he's talking on the phone with that lady. i needed to use my phone but apparently what i want doesn't matter. so he says 10 more minutes after he's had it for 2 hours. i say fine...10 minutes go by, i go in and ask for my phone and he says "hey, cool it". i went absolutely insane. i haven't gotten that mad in a long ass time. when he came out with my phone i said you don't tell me to fucking cool it after i wait 2 hours for you you asshole. then he got pissed and started yelling and was trying to be all threatening but i knew he wasn't going to do anything. so i ended up cussing him out, telling him he's an asshole and how much i hate this place and how much i want to go home, and he laughed in my face. i blew up and threw the couch over and then fucked my knee up again...i went on to tell him that he wasnt doing his job as my guardian, he was being neglegent and that my parents would not aprove of what he was doing, all screaming at the top of my lungs. then i just fucking broke down crying. then he came in my room and i ran out. he started talking all quiet and serious and then about an hour later i calmed down and we talked. it's all good now i guess. i dont know
this is a picture of mexico. it is where i will be from sunday to next saturday. i plan to buy lots of cheap yet cool stuff there. i don't want to go but i am being forced to. i don't think it's a good idea cause my knee isn't healed yet but whatever. i'm gonna miss everyone while i'm gone especcially dalla$$. bloopbloop. speaking of which i want to visit her but i don't know ifi can cause i haven't worked in ages. we'll see...come back my love!!!! oh yeah did you get my letter yet?
there's so many decisions i have to make with money, like whether or not to keep my car or buy a different one in az, or to keep my phone or change service. i'm going to explode. after spring break ther will only be 2 months until i am free. i've made it this long so i can make it to the end. the future is confusing. meow! i love all of you i hope i don't die or get sold into slavery in mexico. peace out nigg.