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livesofast

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Mar 06, 2005 20:58

Oh, no, you can't take that away from me.

I've felt so schizophrenic/bipolar/generally insane recently. I've gone from such highs to such lows to such swirling in-betweens that I have no idea how much sense any of my thoughts have made or how much reality has been included in my perception of the Universe.
Thinking right now gives me such a bad ( Read more... )

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blindsquid March 7 2005, 19:04:09 UTC

hey zowie, i'm feelin' ya and i'm here for you. i kind of went through the same thing (though i hate to be as arrogant as to say i know anything of how you feel) last winter. i felt so miniscule, unimportnat, and simply wrong for thinking i was anything at all. i didn't care about the world, my friends, anything...i didn't care for caring. and i'd put on a happy face around people because it was just a lot easier to seem okay around people that i thought i cared about. and half the time i'd be perfectly okay with it all and half the time it'd just be hopeless. you're so beautiful on the inside zoe, dazzling and radiant and it sounds dumb coming from me, i know, but please don't give up on it? it will be okay in the end. i thought it wouldn't be but certain people that i needed pulled through for me and it just helped me see what's important in my life. i got so lost in my abstraction that the losing myself just turned into fluctuating despair and i got to the brink of not taking it, but i think things are getting better, a lot better ( ... )

blindsquid March 7 2005, 19:04:36 UTC

p.s. don't forget that you're important. cosmically important.

livesofast March 7 2005, 19:41:20 UTC

It's not arrogant, my love. You do understand how I feel; we all understand each other through emotion. We are connected, and feelings cycle through us. I think they're recycled, even, and stories are so vital because sharing them is what makes us understand hope and fear and love and agony... we sympathize and share and connect and somehow Humanity is made beautiful...

vampyre_13o3 March 14 2005, 08:23:55 UTC

you're damn right your head would explode.

p.s. the universe is a complex, yet tangible, crazy mystery to all, um, some of us. And everyone is indeed self-absorbed, don't hold it against yourself or most other people.

p.p.s. I'm ready to prophesize after spending a week bed-ridden, forgive me.