Sometimes I wonder...

[livianne]

Sometimes I wonder what kind of person I could have been if my parents had seen my mental and emotional pain earlier and had taken steps to do something about it. I wonder where I would be right now if they had taken me to the hospital when I showed them the cuts on my arm the first time I ever cut myself instead of becoming angry at me and

Comments

[sillygirl28]

livi livi livi, you can't think about stuff like this. it's too sad and it really doesn't do any good. i mean, it's good to think about it briefly, but try not to dwell on it. you and i have lots of good memories; we had so much fun! and even though we are both wrestling with this kind of stuff now, we both turned out pretty well and our lives are mostly pretty good right? let's try and focus on that! :-) i'm thinkin about you girlie!

[livianne]

yeah, you are totally right. I got myself into this far too contemplative mood and it turned into that. And I do have good memories, lots with you, and with other people too. But when i get down they all go away - does that happen to you too?

In a way I'm glad we're BOTH dealing with this, though neither would be better. It makes it more possible for us to really understand and be there for each other.