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title:silver and cold
author: forgotten evil
rating:NC-17
pairing: Joel and Benji (gc)
summary: Joel makes Benji clean
notes:song fic, AFI silver and cold
disclaimer:own no-one and no-thing
I... I came here by day, but I left here in darkness
And found you, found you on the way
And now, it is silver and silent, it is silver and cold
You, in somber resplendence, I hold
I crept my car into the park across from your street, parking in the usual spot exactly 187 paces from your front door. It was early morning; the first rays of sunlight had just begun to peep over the horizon. There was no one around, the streets silent and peaceful, yet it was not too early to alert the suspicion of nosy neighbours.
I walked with my head down, not wanting to risk being recognised by anyone as I rounded the small brick fence in front of your dwelling.
I stopped in my tracks as a pair of torn faded chunks passed by my down turned gaze; slowly backtracking I lifted my head to meet your sparkling eyes.
You stood up smiling as you stumped out your cigarette and took my hand in yours leading me through your front door. I gently shut it behind us, blocking the world out for just a few precious hours.
Your sins into me
Oh, my beautiful one
Your sins into me
As a rapturous voice escapes, I will tremble a prayer
And I'll beg for forgiveness
(Your sins into me) Your sins into me
Oh, my beautiful one
I turn my head to face you, attempting to stare into your eyes, although all I can make out is one giant blur.
I let a sob escape as one last time I beg for you to not make it like this, trying to get you to see that you don’t have to do this, and for this one time to please make it different.
You shake your head, sounding almost sad, telling me that it has to be this way, that it’s the only way to make things right, and things have to be right.
I smile weakly, knowing that what you say must be true, because you would never lie to me; you have no need to. Ever.
I grimace just slightly as you push into me, pulling against the restraints tying me to the headboard. You say you don’t like me to touch you, because I make you feel dirty.
This is why I always come, because I have to keep you clean, have to keep you beautiful.
I could never be as beautiful as you, we are not the same, we have never been. You have always been more beautiful, and I have to keep you this way, it is my duty.
You begin pounding into me hard, attempting desperately to rid yourself of all the accumulated dirtiness. Everything you have done wrong since last time you push into me, and I take it as best as I can, silent tears escaping the corners of my eyes.
You scream out my name, throwing your head back, as you pull my hips up higher around your waist causing you to penetrate me deeper. I quietly begin to pray, asking that you may be cleansed, that you may be beautiful and pure once more. I scream for forgiveness for being so dirty, so inadequate to you.
Light, like the flutter of wings, feel your hollow voice rushing into me
As you're longing to sing
So I... I will paint you in silver, I will wrap you in cold
I will lift up your voice as I sink
You lean down next to my ear; you shoulder length hair brushing up against my shoulder every time you push forward, reminding me of birds as you softly begin to hum your own broken tune into my ear.
I tug on my restraints again, causing them to snap. Instantly and without thought I wrap my arms around your neck, fading your gold to silver as you shudder, telling me to get my hands off you.
I’m taken aback, quickly dropping my hands from around your neck, letting them fall next to my body, gripping the satin sheets tightly.
You pound into me impossibly harder, finally filling me, causing me the most intense pleasure I have every experienced before. You scream as I tighten myself around you, losing the sound of your voice as I sink into total darkness.
Gasping for breath I find none, knowing that this is where I belong.
Cold in life's throws, I'll fall asleep for you
Cold in life's throws, I only ask you turn away
Cold in life's throws, I'll fall asleep for you
Cold in life's throws, I only ask you turn
As they seep... into me, oh, my beautiful one, now
You pull out of me, sinking to my side leaving me cold and empty. You lie on your back facing the ceiling as you tell me to that I can rest for a while but that ill have to leave soon as your expecting friends over later and that you have to get ready.
You sit up, sighing as you pull the blankets over me, tucking me in like a child. And it’s only then that I realise I’m shaking and crying again. You sigh again getting up off the bed and looking down on me, your eyes showing me how dirty I am. I sob a little harder, turning on to my side to face away from you, whispering for you to please go away as ill make you dirty again.
I hear you rise, searching for and finding your clothes you head out of the room, stopping at the door, silently closing it behind you.
I lay for a few more moments before hearing the shower turn on, letting the sound of the water wash over me, before I rise, hurriedly pulling on what I believe are my clothes and slowly creeping out of the room, out of your house, Before sprinting the 187 paces to my car, the sky now dark as the rain clouds thunder above me. I fall into my car just as the rain begins to fall down.
I sit for a while gripping the steering wheel as I watch the rain crashing noisily around the car.
I smile through my tears as I pull my car put of the park, knowing that you are once again clean.
…until next time my beautiful one
urgh! please what is wrong with this, i know there is something but i cant seem to put my finger on it >.< or is the whole thing just shit? honesty highly appreciated
author: forgotten evil
rating:NC-17
pairing: Joel and Benji (gc)
summary: Joel makes Benji clean
notes:song fic, AFI silver and cold
disclaimer:own no-one and no-thing
I... I came here by day, but I left here in darkness
And found you, found you on the way
And now, it is silver and silent, it is silver and cold
You, in somber resplendence, I hold
I crept my car into the park across from your street, parking in the usual spot exactly 187 paces from your front door. It was early morning; the first rays of sunlight had just begun to peep over the horizon. There was no one around, the streets silent and peaceful, yet it was not too early to alert the suspicion of nosy neighbours.
I walked with my head down, not wanting to risk being recognised by anyone as I rounded the small brick fence in front of your dwelling.
I stopped in my tracks as a pair of torn faded chunks passed by my down turned gaze; slowly backtracking I lifted my head to meet your sparkling eyes.
You stood up smiling as you stumped out your cigarette and took my hand in yours leading me through your front door. I gently shut it behind us, blocking the world out for just a few precious hours.
Your sins into me
Oh, my beautiful one
Your sins into me
As a rapturous voice escapes, I will tremble a prayer
And I'll beg for forgiveness
(Your sins into me) Your sins into me
Oh, my beautiful one
I turn my head to face you, attempting to stare into your eyes, although all I can make out is one giant blur.
I let a sob escape as one last time I beg for you to not make it like this, trying to get you to see that you don’t have to do this, and for this one time to please make it different.
You shake your head, sounding almost sad, telling me that it has to be this way, that it’s the only way to make things right, and things have to be right.
I smile weakly, knowing that what you say must be true, because you would never lie to me; you have no need to. Ever.
I grimace just slightly as you push into me, pulling against the restraints tying me to the headboard. You say you don’t like me to touch you, because I make you feel dirty.
This is why I always come, because I have to keep you clean, have to keep you beautiful.
I could never be as beautiful as you, we are not the same, we have never been. You have always been more beautiful, and I have to keep you this way, it is my duty.
You begin pounding into me hard, attempting desperately to rid yourself of all the accumulated dirtiness. Everything you have done wrong since last time you push into me, and I take it as best as I can, silent tears escaping the corners of my eyes.
You scream out my name, throwing your head back, as you pull my hips up higher around your waist causing you to penetrate me deeper. I quietly begin to pray, asking that you may be cleansed, that you may be beautiful and pure once more. I scream for forgiveness for being so dirty, so inadequate to you.
Light, like the flutter of wings, feel your hollow voice rushing into me
As you're longing to sing
So I... I will paint you in silver, I will wrap you in cold
I will lift up your voice as I sink
You lean down next to my ear; you shoulder length hair brushing up against my shoulder every time you push forward, reminding me of birds as you softly begin to hum your own broken tune into my ear.
I tug on my restraints again, causing them to snap. Instantly and without thought I wrap my arms around your neck, fading your gold to silver as you shudder, telling me to get my hands off you.
I’m taken aback, quickly dropping my hands from around your neck, letting them fall next to my body, gripping the satin sheets tightly.
You pound into me impossibly harder, finally filling me, causing me the most intense pleasure I have every experienced before. You scream as I tighten myself around you, losing the sound of your voice as I sink into total darkness.
Gasping for breath I find none, knowing that this is where I belong.
Cold in life's throws, I'll fall asleep for you
Cold in life's throws, I only ask you turn away
Cold in life's throws, I'll fall asleep for you
Cold in life's throws, I only ask you turn
As they seep... into me, oh, my beautiful one, now
You pull out of me, sinking to my side leaving me cold and empty. You lie on your back facing the ceiling as you tell me to that I can rest for a while but that ill have to leave soon as your expecting friends over later and that you have to get ready.
You sit up, sighing as you pull the blankets over me, tucking me in like a child. And it’s only then that I realise I’m shaking and crying again. You sigh again getting up off the bed and looking down on me, your eyes showing me how dirty I am. I sob a little harder, turning on to my side to face away from you, whispering for you to please go away as ill make you dirty again.
I hear you rise, searching for and finding your clothes you head out of the room, stopping at the door, silently closing it behind you.
I lay for a few more moments before hearing the shower turn on, letting the sound of the water wash over me, before I rise, hurriedly pulling on what I believe are my clothes and slowly creeping out of the room, out of your house, Before sprinting the 187 paces to my car, the sky now dark as the rain clouds thunder above me. I fall into my car just as the rain begins to fall down.
I sit for a while gripping the steering wheel as I watch the rain crashing noisily around the car.
I smile through my tears as I pull my car put of the park, knowing that you are once again clean.
…until next time my beautiful one
urgh! please what is wrong with this, i know there is something but i cant seem to put my finger on it >.< or is the whole thing just shit? honesty highly appreciated