'I told you, I don't like space!"
I had one of those dreams that really stand out, which always indicates to me that somethings coming up. Hey, I'm an Indian, I'm allowed to be superstitious.... anywho, it involved the planet Jupiter getting so close to the Earth, you could clearly see all it's details with the naked eye. You would think under those conditions, we'd all die, but everyone was ok with it and all was fine. It creeped me out, but I knew it wasn't a threat, I remember telling a friend that I felt "it's like being next to a bullet-proof window and a serial killer is right behind it. You know they can't get you, but scary as hell that it's that damn close." I was abruptly woken up by my phone.....which scared the crap outta me, lol. I have a fear of big open spaces, so I really hate outer space.
So I looked up what Jupiter symbolizes, which in a nutshell, is all positive about making advancements and expansion in life. Generally good luck, money, guidance, etc-etc. Sure enough, things started to show me that I really need to make some major changes in my life. They may be scary, like how it creeped me out in my dream how dangerously close the planet Jupiter was, but it's a good thing. So whatever is coming up for me, I may not like it, but it's for something really big and awesome.
I have no choice but to figure a way to make more money, period. I am always just barely scraping by, even when I get big payoffs all they do is go toward debt. I owe my friends money, I need a car, I need to be able to help my Mom if she needs it, to help Jeremey, to get dental work, I need to do too much and the way things are now I'll never be able to afford those things.
Game jobs and artist jobs have been chased out of the Chicago area. I can't afford to move to another state. I could just go into making my own studio, but I need some extra funding. I have nobody to ask and my credit is shot. Best I can do is get a business loan or grant. I have my Indian benefits but apparently I can only use them if i move to Canada.
So my decision? I need a loan or grant. If I can't get them, I have to go to Canada. I won't have to live there for good, but still, I will probably have to go and apply for all I can, maybe live with my Aunt for awhile in Vancouver. Right now she's the only one really able to help me out. I will either get funding for college, my business, or just look for jobs up there.
I'm the type who loves to move to new places, but it would be hard to leave my friends behind. And I asked Jeremey if I were to move, could we still be a couple, which he said of course. So that's sweet, but I really would rather not leave him here. He can't move with because he's buying a house with his brother, who really needs his help since he now has a wife and new baby. Also Jer's haunted house is in a permanent spot now so he wants to try and run it year round and make it a career. He's not leaving the Elgin area for years.
The loan hunt hasn't been that great, and neither has job leads.....but I will keep looking. I really hope Jupiter was a positive symbol.
So I looked up what Jupiter symbolizes, which in a nutshell, is all positive about making advancements and expansion in life. Generally good luck, money, guidance, etc-etc. Sure enough, things started to show me that I really need to make some major changes in my life. They may be scary, like how it creeped me out in my dream how dangerously close the planet Jupiter was, but it's a good thing. So whatever is coming up for me, I may not like it, but it's for something really big and awesome.
I have no choice but to figure a way to make more money, period. I am always just barely scraping by, even when I get big payoffs all they do is go toward debt. I owe my friends money, I need a car, I need to be able to help my Mom if she needs it, to help Jeremey, to get dental work, I need to do too much and the way things are now I'll never be able to afford those things.
Game jobs and artist jobs have been chased out of the Chicago area. I can't afford to move to another state. I could just go into making my own studio, but I need some extra funding. I have nobody to ask and my credit is shot. Best I can do is get a business loan or grant. I have my Indian benefits but apparently I can only use them if i move to Canada.
So my decision? I need a loan or grant. If I can't get them, I have to go to Canada. I won't have to live there for good, but still, I will probably have to go and apply for all I can, maybe live with my Aunt for awhile in Vancouver. Right now she's the only one really able to help me out. I will either get funding for college, my business, or just look for jobs up there.
I'm the type who loves to move to new places, but it would be hard to leave my friends behind. And I asked Jeremey if I were to move, could we still be a couple, which he said of course. So that's sweet, but I really would rather not leave him here. He can't move with because he's buying a house with his brother, who really needs his help since he now has a wife and new baby. Also Jer's haunted house is in a permanent spot now so he wants to try and run it year round and make it a career. He's not leaving the Elgin area for years.
The loan hunt hasn't been that great, and neither has job leads.....but I will keep looking. I really hope Jupiter was a positive symbol.