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[livingdeadgirl9]

I just miss everything. This is the first time since everything happened, that I'm just sincerely realizing everything I've lost. Everything I'll never be able to get back. Certain friends, certain fun, certain dreams... Sometimes, I wish I could take it all back. Go back in time..but then...

I just...miss everything. and everyone.

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[jmaynard84]

if we could turn back time.. the world would be a different place.. people would be different people, places wouldn't mean the same thing, the time you cried could be the happiest time in your life. but if that was so, how would you know what was so great? what could have been so great? what is so great about what things are now

[livingdeadgirl9]

I miss you too as well, josh. You know that right? And how can I not read what you type? You always have some really weird way of making me feel better.

Kris :)

PS- I think I see your point.

i'm butting in. but lovingly.

[jendevil]

I had to move around so much, town to town, houses to apartments to streets, and I realized afterwards... everyone who ever truly cared, I still talk to. When you go through a period of time where no one can get ahold of you because you have no phone, no address and no internet access... and when you get back, everyone's just there waiting for you... You know they care. Take advantage of situations like these. Half of my past 'friends' we just dirtbags anyway, I was just too comfortable with my settings to realize it.

I hope you don't think I'm being pushy or smarter-than-thou. I just have been through so many situations (like the other day when my grandma was chasing me with a hammer) that I thought I'd never live through... but somehow things always end up okay. It's up to you, I think. If you wanna get out of the life you're not happy in and into the one you know you deserve, then you'll make the right decisions on the way to getting there. You've got plenty of time to think about it now, right?

Re: i'm butting in. but lovingly.

[livingdeadgirl9]

I guess you're right and I think the same way too sometimes. This is really the best thing for me and it's what I want to do...It's just that at certain times I want to go back to the way things were. I think about how nice it would be if none of this happened. I know I just have to reassure myself when this happens. But it's just happening a lot lately.

Thanks for saying something, and I don't mind that you're butting in. It's not really butting in anyway.

Kris

As I have said before...

[ldzpplnaddict]

I have no idea how bad you could feel right now. I just want you to know I'm here for you anytime (as I have said in every other comment I have posted). Kristin, you are loved. I try and think that I am when I get really down...It never seems to work for me because well...I'm not. But I know you are. You're doing such a good job. I'm so proud of you. I'm behind you everystep of the way...I might get a little lost and turned around along the way, but I won't be far. We shall speak in business foundations...that is if you want. Have a good day...you deserve it.

love
Amanda

Re: As I have said before...

[livingdeadgirl9]

Thanks Amanda.

Kris :)

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[anonymous]

I really hope you do get back those certain friends, be once again able to have your certain fun, and continue having your certain dreams you once had.

Sorry, if there's anything I can do, I'd be more than glad to help. I can try and build a time machine for you...But, I don't want you to get radiation exposure from the microwave....

Anywho, I love you. I promise to be the best friend I can be. If you feel comfortable enough to talk to me, I'm all ears. If you feel not so...That's cool too. I just want you to know that I'm here.

...EmTwo

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[livingdeadgirl9]

Thanks Matt, that means alot. I'm just having a hard time trusting people right now, it's not anything against you.

Kris

[wtchmeasibleed]

hey miss hot thang! ;) oh gosh Kris. you're so awesome, like woah. we never really talked until this year. thank god for first period. <3
we really need to hang out. i know you can't really do much right now, but whenever i have a ride to your house i will be more than ready. i'll be at every one of your softball games! :D haha i'll be in the bleachers cheering you on! WeeeeE!
in most situations like these, like the one you're in, in the end you will realize who your true friends are. i can relate to a lot of things you are having to go through.i am truly one who will always be willing to talk to you. if you can even trust me that much. either way i'll be more than happy just being friends with you. :)

T-$

P.S.-SUB FROM HELL!!!!!!! gay faggott...

[livingdeadgirl9]

Yeah, you're amazing Tara. I can't believe how good of friends we became in such this short amount of time. Do you remember when we used to hate each other and then we played "chutes and ladders" together and we turned into friends? That was amazing. That's the way all friendships should be started- with a game of "chutes and ladders". I love you Tara! (T-$)

Kris :)

PS- you can talk to me whenever you need to as well.

[wtchmeasibleed]

ah... i love you too! 0:)