Im so bored its ridiculous. I wanted to stay in bed all day and hide from the world. But heidi and her mom dragged me out and off I went to school. Oh well. Ive gone to 2 of my classes. Am skipping the third one and going to the last one...well at least as much as I can handle with out going batshit crazy. Sigh. Oh and I found out the only day Im ( Read more... )

Its been two days.

ugh. No work...bored. travis has a headache. that is all.

I am so not okay. I can't even hold it together. I so don't even know him anymore. I just want to go home and cry. I am a mess. What have I done wrong to deserve this?

I give up.
I really do.
You know when something is really important...even though its retarted...and you've asked and asked...and yet you still can't have it. Yeah. So I give up. I don't have the energy to fight for it. I can't even sit through an entire class. I am a pitiful excuse for a human.

Shoot me. I thought I was doing better. Now I just want to cry. I am trying to stay up and together...Im not doing so great. Edit: I am failing miserably.

I AM SO BORED AND MY BRAIN is going insane. Like INSANE. Its not cool. At all. I am thinking its from meds, and Im hoping that once my body gets used to it, it won't go insane anymore. Lol. Grumble. I am soooooo bored. SO SO SO SO SO SO SO bored. I should do something like do school work--but i dunna feel like it. Grumble. Maybe I'll go lay down ( Read more... )

I just woke up. I feel a little more clearheaded which is good, cause I don't feel like my brain is foggy. Grumble ( Read more... )

Sigh. I give up. I am not having a good day. I want to go back to where I was this weekend. I didn't have to deal with hurt there. And right now i am hurting. I wish heidi wasn't in class, I could use a hug. Like now. Sigh. Im trying I really am. I suck though, so its not going to well.

Im trying really hard to keep cheerful and not get depressed--its not really working--but I AM trying.
Um lets see. Today hasn't been too bad--i think the weather and such is really sapping on my mood. Which isn't all the great, considering I am supposed to stay cheerful and try and not get down again. Sigh. Grumble. Oh well. Im working on it.