living in san diego with people i dont know has made me realize how lonely i am. or maybe its just the "drama" of moving out, again.
i could go for a nice long hug.

as i sit here with my over the counter sushi(which isnt that bad, and quite spicy)i begin to realize that my life is completely, appalingly different. actually, i would have to be this is my second painstaking realization. the first, great awakening, was when i got food poisoning from an aweful burrito from hell. i threw up 9 times, including all ( Read more... )

your ignorance dumbfounds me. for years you have been a source of frustration. it was engraved into me that i am the loki, the sole provoker. none have ever looked at your innocent being before as an instigator. it has always been me. i have ed so many tears, bruised so many tissues. when i went away, it was as if i shed fifty pounds of lead from ( Read more... )

i'm tired of feeling this way. i'm ready to take control of my life again.

oh and fuck pink eye. i have it in both eyes.

so this is probably the most disturbing thing ever. it almost makes me want to become a vegetarian.

http://video.google.com/videoplay?docid=3251419433163515470

i feel like my life is wasting away in what is the quintessential of television, gansitos, and the internet. for the first time in a year i have absolutely nothing to do. i wake up, eat breakfast with my mother, see her off at around ten thirty, and spend the rest of the day doing nothing. i watched tv for seven hours straight yesterday. i didnt ( Read more... )

i really want to play halo right now.
but nobody wants to play!!!

so i havent even graduated yet ( Read more... )

i have come to the conclusion that boys are like periods. i could go on forever about this.

nine month anniversary today with the bf. thats pretty tight.