I did everything for you
I. Am. Pumped.
Paul is coming over/up/down/whatever direction fits for him coming from Hillsdale this Saturday! We are going to talk about prayer. Sweeeet. Oh man. I love this kid so freaking much. He's amazing.
So I talked to him tonight...and he gave me the biggest
TheseVeryStones: annie, as a friend, can i just tell you that you are going to make some man of god the happiest man on earth one day
Orphan205: haha
Orphan205: well, thank you very much
TheseVeryStones: really. i know few (well, maybe 2) girls that have the desire to grow spiritually in the same way that you do, and the same eagerness for it and desire to be spiritually minded
TheseVeryStones: you are going to make life so happy for a man who wants to have a godly marriage one day
TheseVeryStones: i was with roy, and i haven't seen him in weeks
TheseVeryStones: so it was worth it
Orphan205: oh yeah? very cool
TheseVeryStones: i agree
Orphan205: i still have to meet this guy
TheseVeryStones: haha, yes you do
TheseVeryStones: he's heard of you
TheseVeryStones: several times, in fact
Orphan205: ooh im famous
TheseVeryStones: you are
TheseVeryStones: actually, there's a lot of people who have heard things about you
TheseVeryStones: i must say, annie, that i do speak very highly of you to people
Orphan205: well, same goes for you
TheseVeryStones: i'm sure there's a few people who have heard your name in various corners of the country
Orphan205: haha
TheseVeryStones: i know your name is in washington state, texas, new york, all over michigan, atlanta, missouri, and a few other places
TheseVeryStones: haha, you are famous!
Orphan205: holy cow
TheseVeryStones: hahaha, yeah.....
Orphan205: well, im certainly flattered
TheseVeryStones: i was serious when i said that there are few women out there like you. and i know lots of people whose prime interest is in the state of the church in various places, so....yeah, your name comes up sometimes
Orphan205: haha!
TheseVeryStones: so yeah, take comfort in knowing that you are an encouragement to people all over that you don't even know, and that the body of Christ has grown and been encouraged by you in ways you don't even know
Now when I feel like I'm doing nothing for the Kingdom, I can remember what he told me. I can fall back on his encouragement. I always can.
He's one of the most amazing people I know; I am so lucky to have his friendship.
Alright. Let's talk about Jesus. There are times I get overly excited and perhaps a little obnoxious or confusing when I say something like "Jesus is still human." [But seriously. Think about that. Think about what it really means. It's incredible.] I'm not trying to be all 'crazy Christian girl' but that's just how it comes out. And even so, I'm proud to be the crazy Christian girl. I'm proud to be enthusiastic for Christ. He deserves it. He deserves for us to think and talk about Him all the time.
There was a time when I thought the people who danced in aisles and yelled praises during church were really annoying and that they shouldn't be doing that; but what they did is what I aspire to do now. I want to be able to worship Him wherever I am in the way I would in private. I'm definitely better than I used to be, in the sense that my arms practically raise themselves, but it's still not what I do alone. We shouldn't be embarrassed for worshiping Jesus. It just shouldn't happen.
Sufjan puts you in a mood. Okay, so he enables you to be in a certain mood. It just so happened that I was riding a bus from north campus while listening to this song. I passed a lot of places that will always mean something to me on this ride. Places where I changed. Places where I discovered things about myself I had never known. Places where I spent most of my life last year. Places I miss.
This year is harder for me than I imagined it would be. I don't always like the clarity of hindsight. I didn't realize what I had last year until I came back to school a month ago. I'm so out of contact with so many people and I hate it. And I suck because I'm seemingly unwilling to do much about it.
Okay. I just figured out what it is I really want. I want accessibility to be like it was last year. Because this year I'd actually see everyone. And even if I do move back to Baits next year, who's to say there will still be others living there again? Leah will be gone for good anyway, and Nick and Jon and Val and Theresa might find houses or apartments.
I wish I could re-live some things...mostly how I spent my time. I would have visited Brandon and Nick more often since they were just upstairs, and walked next door to Mickey's. I would've gone over to Baits I and seen Whit, and even walked over to Britt's apartment.
The things you regret.
The things I'll always regret.
Paul is coming over/up/down/whatever direction fits for him coming from Hillsdale this Saturday! We are going to talk about prayer. Sweeeet. Oh man. I love this kid so freaking much. He's amazing.
So I talked to him tonight...and he gave me the biggest
TheseVeryStones: annie, as a friend, can i just tell you that you are going to make some man of god the happiest man on earth one day
Orphan205: haha
Orphan205: well, thank you very much
TheseVeryStones: really. i know few (well, maybe 2) girls that have the desire to grow spiritually in the same way that you do, and the same eagerness for it and desire to be spiritually minded
TheseVeryStones: you are going to make life so happy for a man who wants to have a godly marriage one day
TheseVeryStones: i was with roy, and i haven't seen him in weeks
TheseVeryStones: so it was worth it
Orphan205: oh yeah? very cool
TheseVeryStones: i agree
Orphan205: i still have to meet this guy
TheseVeryStones: haha, yes you do
TheseVeryStones: he's heard of you
TheseVeryStones: several times, in fact
Orphan205: ooh im famous
TheseVeryStones: you are
TheseVeryStones: actually, there's a lot of people who have heard things about you
TheseVeryStones: i must say, annie, that i do speak very highly of you to people
Orphan205: well, same goes for you
TheseVeryStones: i'm sure there's a few people who have heard your name in various corners of the country
Orphan205: haha
TheseVeryStones: i know your name is in washington state, texas, new york, all over michigan, atlanta, missouri, and a few other places
TheseVeryStones: haha, you are famous!
Orphan205: holy cow
TheseVeryStones: hahaha, yeah.....
Orphan205: well, im certainly flattered
TheseVeryStones: i was serious when i said that there are few women out there like you. and i know lots of people whose prime interest is in the state of the church in various places, so....yeah, your name comes up sometimes
Orphan205: haha!
TheseVeryStones: so yeah, take comfort in knowing that you are an encouragement to people all over that you don't even know, and that the body of Christ has grown and been encouraged by you in ways you don't even know
Now when I feel like I'm doing nothing for the Kingdom, I can remember what he told me. I can fall back on his encouragement. I always can.
He's one of the most amazing people I know; I am so lucky to have his friendship.
Alright. Let's talk about Jesus. There are times I get overly excited and perhaps a little obnoxious or confusing when I say something like "Jesus is still human." [But seriously. Think about that. Think about what it really means. It's incredible.] I'm not trying to be all 'crazy Christian girl' but that's just how it comes out. And even so, I'm proud to be the crazy Christian girl. I'm proud to be enthusiastic for Christ. He deserves it. He deserves for us to think and talk about Him all the time.
There was a time when I thought the people who danced in aisles and yelled praises during church were really annoying and that they shouldn't be doing that; but what they did is what I aspire to do now. I want to be able to worship Him wherever I am in the way I would in private. I'm definitely better than I used to be, in the sense that my arms practically raise themselves, but it's still not what I do alone. We shouldn't be embarrassed for worshiping Jesus. It just shouldn't happen.
Sufjan puts you in a mood. Okay, so he enables you to be in a certain mood. It just so happened that I was riding a bus from north campus while listening to this song. I passed a lot of places that will always mean something to me on this ride. Places where I changed. Places where I discovered things about myself I had never known. Places where I spent most of my life last year. Places I miss.
This year is harder for me than I imagined it would be. I don't always like the clarity of hindsight. I didn't realize what I had last year until I came back to school a month ago. I'm so out of contact with so many people and I hate it. And I suck because I'm seemingly unwilling to do much about it.
Okay. I just figured out what it is I really want. I want accessibility to be like it was last year. Because this year I'd actually see everyone. And even if I do move back to Baits next year, who's to say there will still be others living there again? Leah will be gone for good anyway, and Nick and Jon and Val and Theresa might find houses or apartments.
I wish I could re-live some things...mostly how I spent my time. I would have visited Brandon and Nick more often since they were just upstairs, and walked next door to Mickey's. I would've gone over to Baits I and seen Whit, and even walked over to Britt's apartment.
The things you regret.
The things I'll always regret.