have you ever seen the far side
1. i'm so bored i'm going to go out and buy groceries for my lunches this week. haven't figured out exactly what i'll make, but probably some sandwhiches, or stuff i can keep for some time. the annoying thing about my schedule is that i'll get really really busy periods where i hardly have a moment to stop, and then super empty days where i'm sort of in shock from having to get up at 7am and not getting home until late. usually is pent it fretting about my assignments, but all my work has been handed in, and basically i'm just tiding over until exams -- which is in a months time. wow. i'm organized this semster. :DDD
2. it's that weird spike in time where i should probably start applying for part-time jobs again, but i still have exams, so it's like should i wait until it's all over to apply for stuff? the money i saved up is definitely dwindling, but i've enough to tide me over for a couple of months. if i wait till later, i might get more competition, but right now i'm just chilling and relaxing for the storm that's going to tide over soon. idk. i'll think about it.
3. i don't know what i was thinking with my stalker-obsession with my lecturer. well i mean, that's probably the problem: i wasn't thinking. i had my super-rose-tinted-glasses on the whole time. he was probably just being nice-- and the subtle hints i thought he was giving? probably wasn't hints. or maybe they were, but he later figured out we probably wouldn't go very well together. which we won't, now that i've known him for longer. he's got a nomadic soul-- i'm just going to tie him down. he's going to norway, and i'm attached to sydney (for now). we're at different points in our lives. glad i figured that out for myself. he's still adorable though.
4. the reason i've put down my rose tinted glasses is for adam, tho. i've put them on for him instead. sort of. we went out for dinner a couple of weeks ago and some wiring just shifted in my brain, and i just decided, right there and then, to persue that relationship fully because homg so so so worth it. we're both kinnnda relationship-stunted in that we can't take this shit seriously, but at the same time we both want that kind of companionship and the cuddles. his sarcasm is dry enough to cut through rocks, and he's hilarious. and way too fuckin smart for his own good. sometimes i get bitter at how quickly he picks up concepts, and then i stop feeling bitter because that's a stupid thing to get upset over. some people get dealt better hands at life. get the fuck over it.
5. i miss my family. a lot. my uncle passed away, and i'm so removed from it i don't feel anything at all. i hate it so much. i dread christmas, and my birthday coming up, because i'll just have my mum to spend it with, and i love her so much, but i want to spent it with all them. i can't afford to buy a trip to japan or china, though, and it's killing me, because i'm too proud to accept tickets from them. i'm going to save up so i can go next year, during the August winter holidays. i'm going to have to save up quite a bit, because i also want to go on a skiing trip with adam. but priority is my family. god i want to see my cousin again. talk to grandparents. have one of those huge asian dinners that last for hours and hours and hours on end. funny how the things i took for granted when i was little come at so great a cost to me.
6. i also miss asia in general. i want to go back to my hometown. eat chewy donuts at mister donuts, spent an afternoon trawling around jujyou ginza, buy lot's of cake and share it with my cousin. spend an evening going to onsen, just relaxing with my aunt after a nice warm bowl of udon. watch shitty reality tv shows till midnight with all of them. going to the shrine with my uncle, and oh god oh god he's gone. i'm unaffected, but i think it's because the reality of the situation hasn't really hit me. i'll never see him again.
2. it's that weird spike in time where i should probably start applying for part-time jobs again, but i still have exams, so it's like should i wait until it's all over to apply for stuff? the money i saved up is definitely dwindling, but i've enough to tide me over for a couple of months. if i wait till later, i might get more competition, but right now i'm just chilling and relaxing for the storm that's going to tide over soon. idk. i'll think about it.
3. i don't know what i was thinking with my stalker-obsession with my lecturer. well i mean, that's probably the problem: i wasn't thinking. i had my super-rose-tinted-glasses on the whole time. he was probably just being nice-- and the subtle hints i thought he was giving? probably wasn't hints. or maybe they were, but he later figured out we probably wouldn't go very well together. which we won't, now that i've known him for longer. he's got a nomadic soul-- i'm just going to tie him down. he's going to norway, and i'm attached to sydney (for now). we're at different points in our lives. glad i figured that out for myself. he's still adorable though.
4. the reason i've put down my rose tinted glasses is for adam, tho. i've put them on for him instead. sort of. we went out for dinner a couple of weeks ago and some wiring just shifted in my brain, and i just decided, right there and then, to persue that relationship fully because homg so so so worth it. we're both kinnnda relationship-stunted in that we can't take this shit seriously, but at the same time we both want that kind of companionship and the cuddles. his sarcasm is dry enough to cut through rocks, and he's hilarious. and way too fuckin smart for his own good. sometimes i get bitter at how quickly he picks up concepts, and then i stop feeling bitter because that's a stupid thing to get upset over. some people get dealt better hands at life. get the fuck over it.
5. i miss my family. a lot. my uncle passed away, and i'm so removed from it i don't feel anything at all. i hate it so much. i dread christmas, and my birthday coming up, because i'll just have my mum to spend it with, and i love her so much, but i want to spent it with all them. i can't afford to buy a trip to japan or china, though, and it's killing me, because i'm too proud to accept tickets from them. i'm going to save up so i can go next year, during the August winter holidays. i'm going to have to save up quite a bit, because i also want to go on a skiing trip with adam. but priority is my family. god i want to see my cousin again. talk to grandparents. have one of those huge asian dinners that last for hours and hours and hours on end. funny how the things i took for granted when i was little come at so great a cost to me.
6. i also miss asia in general. i want to go back to my hometown. eat chewy donuts at mister donuts, spent an afternoon trawling around jujyou ginza, buy lot's of cake and share it with my cousin. spend an evening going to onsen, just relaxing with my aunt after a nice warm bowl of udon. watch shitty reality tv shows till midnight with all of them. going to the shrine with my uncle, and oh god oh god he's gone. i'm unaffected, but i think it's because the reality of the situation hasn't really hit me. i'll never see him again.