it must have been everything
*whinge whinge whinge*
And I'll keep whingin' too, cos it's been waaaaaay too long since I've gone back, mosly because of financial issues (i.e we just bought our own place, my 2nd cousin got himself in debt, and serious of other shitty things that happened to my family). Annoyingly enough, I think I have a free ticket from my accumulated qantas frequent flyer points that I completely forgot about. Unfortuantely, it's too late to book a ticket for these winter holidays, and I could go back during winter break, but that'll be chasing summers, and exactly what I don't want to do. I want to enjoy my winter while I can. ouo;;
Which means, I'll probably book a flight back for sometime this time next year. Yaay!
--
Adam's apartment next to uni is so so ridiculously convenient. I'm abusing the heck out of it.
We spent an afternoon studying together on his couch; he was reading Austen, and I was reading for my history of ethics class. We had tea together and I sat on his lap, and we spent ages just talking (well no, we also had chocolate chip cookies and ice cream : D). It was ridiculously comfortable and made me feel the warm fuzzies for him.
At the same time though, we are going simultaneously fast, and ridiculously slow. On one hand, I've slept over, but we didn't sleep together, per se. We haven't even kissed, but that's more to do with my aversion towards kissing and me freaking out that I'll stop liking him, and everything will be ruined. I suppose it's mainly my fault. Adam's being the passive one in this relationship and strangely enough I'm very much okay with this. I'm not exactly agressive per-se, and in fact I dislike aggressive people, but I'll do the legwork and push for the necessary steps that he cleeaarly wants, but something is stopping him. I'm not sure what it is exactly, though I have theories.
1. He's just shy: the least likely. He doesn't like being in many social situations, but we're both chameleons. We adapt.
2. He just kinda... is: the most likely. I'm a little bit indecisive, but he takes that to the nth level. There's a sense in which he seems to just be along for the ride, and occasionally moving the steering wheel if it get's off-track, but apart from that, he seems happy to let me take the reigns.
3. He's not sure what to do: maybe? I'm his first relationship, and he probably isn't sure what he wants/likes, and what the conventions are.
But that's why he's adooooooorrraaaaaaaaaaaable. And also why I musn't step on him. It seems to be mostly him changing himself to suit my ends (I never expect him to), and he would neverr vocalise any objections he had towards my behaviour. I have to end up guessing what he likes/dislikes. I'm constantly worried I'm stepping on him, and it's just going to build up tiny bits of resentment until he decides to break up with me... or doesn't break up with me, but continue with the repressed resentment. But yes, we're going to spent Tuesday to Wednesday together. Whoop! Itinary: morning - hand in essay to the quad, lunch somewhere in the city, spend some time in the white rabbit gallery, cook dinner at Adam's apartment, watch a movie on his laptop, snuggle and sleep. Then in the morning, we can have breakfast at that lovely cafe next to his apartment. Then, because I have exams in a week and a half's time, go study in fisher library. Have dinner at the Japanese katsu place, and return home. It's going to be glorious, despite it's mundanity. Domestic bliss, I think. I've never been so happy at the prospect.
Is it normal that we only really see each other 2-3 times a week? I feel like other couple's are a whole heck more clingier, but I mean, I'm not exactly complaining.
--
Oh I've endeavoured to do the weekly food challenge. Take a picture of every meal this week. Gotta remember to do it, and I'll post the results. : D
And I'll keep whingin' too, cos it's been waaaaaay too long since I've gone back, mosly because of financial issues (i.e we just bought our own place, my 2nd cousin got himself in debt, and serious of other shitty things that happened to my family). Annoyingly enough, I think I have a free ticket from my accumulated qantas frequent flyer points that I completely forgot about. Unfortuantely, it's too late to book a ticket for these winter holidays, and I could go back during winter break, but that'll be chasing summers, and exactly what I don't want to do. I want to enjoy my winter while I can. ouo;;
Which means, I'll probably book a flight back for sometime this time next year. Yaay!
--
Adam's apartment next to uni is so so ridiculously convenient. I'm abusing the heck out of it.
We spent an afternoon studying together on his couch; he was reading Austen, and I was reading for my history of ethics class. We had tea together and I sat on his lap, and we spent ages just talking (well no, we also had chocolate chip cookies and ice cream : D). It was ridiculously comfortable and made me feel the warm fuzzies for him.
At the same time though, we are going simultaneously fast, and ridiculously slow. On one hand, I've slept over, but we didn't sleep together, per se. We haven't even kissed, but that's more to do with my aversion towards kissing and me freaking out that I'll stop liking him, and everything will be ruined. I suppose it's mainly my fault. Adam's being the passive one in this relationship and strangely enough I'm very much okay with this. I'm not exactly agressive per-se, and in fact I dislike aggressive people, but I'll do the legwork and push for the necessary steps that he cleeaarly wants, but something is stopping him. I'm not sure what it is exactly, though I have theories.
1. He's just shy: the least likely. He doesn't like being in many social situations, but we're both chameleons. We adapt.
2. He just kinda... is: the most likely. I'm a little bit indecisive, but he takes that to the nth level. There's a sense in which he seems to just be along for the ride, and occasionally moving the steering wheel if it get's off-track, but apart from that, he seems happy to let me take the reigns.
3. He's not sure what to do: maybe? I'm his first relationship, and he probably isn't sure what he wants/likes, and what the conventions are.
But that's why he's adooooooorrraaaaaaaaaaaable. And also why I musn't step on him. It seems to be mostly him changing himself to suit my ends (I never expect him to), and he would neverr vocalise any objections he had towards my behaviour. I have to end up guessing what he likes/dislikes. I'm constantly worried I'm stepping on him, and it's just going to build up tiny bits of resentment until he decides to break up with me... or doesn't break up with me, but continue with the repressed resentment. But yes, we're going to spent Tuesday to Wednesday together. Whoop! Itinary: morning - hand in essay to the quad, lunch somewhere in the city, spend some time in the white rabbit gallery, cook dinner at Adam's apartment, watch a movie on his laptop, snuggle and sleep. Then in the morning, we can have breakfast at that lovely cafe next to his apartment. Then, because I have exams in a week and a half's time, go study in fisher library. Have dinner at the Japanese katsu place, and return home. It's going to be glorious, despite it's mundanity. Domestic bliss, I think. I've never been so happy at the prospect.
Is it normal that we only really see each other 2-3 times a week? I feel like other couple's are a whole heck more clingier, but I mean, I'm not exactly complaining.
--
Oh I've endeavoured to do the weekly food challenge. Take a picture of every meal this week. Gotta remember to do it, and I'll post the results. : D