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[lksncks]

so practice sucked, i fought my worst ever. dissappointed / releived that katrina didnt show, amused to watch as ashely is in the state i was in like a week ago still fighting for her life to bring mike back and i hope he does but more likey hes gone for good to another person as well

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friendship

[blake2283]

You know it as I do to hope Ashley and Mike get back together. Since I still don't know much about Mike and his thought patterns, I don't know the entire situation (probably best I didn't.... less of a headache) but you and I hope they would continue to be together and be happy. You are doing what you can for Ashley to get Mike back, but the only person now to make it happen is Mike. Nothing is hopeless. There is always hope! If I can get over Ilene and move on with my life, so can you and Ashley. All it takes is time. As for your skills as a fighter, I wouldn't care who I fought no matter how many times I've lost against him/her. I go fight to have fun whether I win or lose. It doesn't matter. It's just a game and will not be taken seriously by me. I'm in the ECS to have fun and not ever turn it into reality or something serious like other members do. I honestly don't think I'm cut out to be hospitaller of Solaris or ever again. I'm best to be some sort of equipment carrier or ministry person because I like the idea of being prepared

Re: friendship

[lksncks]

no blake there are situations without hope. and franky mine is one. i am condememed by myself to sit and wait for a dream that will not come to me for a hope that i failed to be faithful to more than once and its cost me everything. my love my dignity my friends well a few of them anyway my pride and my confidice in my self and my moral bering. i have thrown so much away in the pursuit of a nameless goal bucause i keep trying to put a name on the objective of my life and it falls apart. and when i am left with hope of my dream i cant give up i cant give in and its brutal. your life ticks on and on and on without purpose without drive its maddening to watch hours go by and wonder why you continue to sit but yet you remain hoping the phone in your pocket will ring and they will be on the other end of the line
jt was right i do try to be the white knight and save lots of people i really thought i found some one to save me...

[blake2283]

there is no one that can save you. the only person that can save you is you. You need to be strong not having to worry about anyone to save you. Women have tried to make me happy, but they have failed due to their lack of options or they weren't trying hard enough. You got to have a heart and be creative as well as determined to win/conquer your goal. Muscle won't beat it, but it is more having to do with your mind and your personality. I would never expect anyone to "save" me because I honestly doubt they could. If they can prove me wrong, then it would be truly surprised. As for your view of my life, I have been working hard to do what I can to earn a descent living. I plan to go back to college someday, and I'll be moving into an apartment soon. Otherwise, what do you think I should do about how I am with my life? What do you suggest will make it better? At least I try to call people and make plans. Does it really matter what day I call you to ask to hang out with you or with anyone?