Comments | lli017: i miss him..... :-(

lli017

i miss him..... :-(

Jul 21, 2005 12:13

last night i fought w/ my parents fo about 3-4 hours. it was terrible. we stayed up till 3 in the morning yelling at first then, finally talking. i fucking hate my home. i hate everything about my house. enough ( Read more... )

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anonymous July 21 2005, 21:27:40 UTC

why are you going to try and change yourself...shouldnt blake be happy with how you are if he really loves you. why would you ever be a let down to him????...and why would you make him depressed...you are better than this and dont need to let him make you feel like a shitty g/f. thats crazy ( ... )

lli017 July 22 2005, 00:32:00 UTC

it's not what you think and i'm not dependent on him. sorry if you took it that way. i know who i am w/o him, and i don't let him run my life. and if anything, i'm not starved for any attention, i'm perfectly content being by myself at times and staying home alone... and if anything, you should be more concerned with that than i should. and if it seems that way... well maybe it's b/c i've never gotten attention like this b/f or been spoiled the way you have. and maybe being he does make me feel better about myself. isn't that suppose to be a good thing? maybe that's b/c my whole life i've been let down and put in the back burning b/c you sucked up all the glory in everything. sometimes, i wish you knew how it feels to be your friend at times, and always having to be second to you. you don't what it's like ( ... )

anonymous July 22 2005, 20:46:18 UTC

you took it all wrong...i dont think that youre some weak person who cant stand alone...and why do you always make me out to be some arrogant self rightous person...like all i care about is myself...like ive always tried to make you feel bad about your self...like ive always tired to take all the attention. i dont know why you would think that ( ... )

lli017 July 22 2005, 22:06:40 UTC

no, i know you don't put me down, and you never have. i guess, you took what i said wrong too. i know you don't always the to be the center of attention, it just always has seemed to fall in to place for you. everything w/ you seemed a lot easier.. until, well, we grew up. i'm sorry for making you think that you're a bad friend, but you're not. i'm not trying to tell you that you always are trying to make me feel bad. and i didn't take it that way either, i know you care, and that's why i can tell you everything. tiffany, you're not a horrrible friend to me and please don't think that. you're the best friend i've always had and always will have. you care so much about me to even bare to talk to me even when i treat you like shit. i don't even understand why you're still my friend sometimes, i probably would have given up a long time ago. thank you for putting up w/ me and everything that goes on in my obscure life for so long ( ... )

chendamoni July 22 2005, 22:04:37 UTC

Don't change yourself for Blake. He loves you for you, duh, haha.

I think you guys should just take things as they come. You love each other too much to spend the rest of your time together sulking.

♥

lli017 July 23 2005, 03:52:05 UTC

thank you, but please don't thing we have a shitty relationship b/c we don't. we do love each other.

love,,,
lucy