Comments | llybian: General Sense of Unease

llybian

General Sense of Unease

Mar 19, 2011 09:34

Y'know, I've had anxiety issues in the past, but things have been getting a lot better over the years. Just this term though it seems like I've been having trouble. On the one hand, I've made very definite strides to take charge of my life more and be more social... on the other hand, I keep getting this lingering embarrassed feeling by the end of ( Read more... )

pokemon, slayers, graphics, anxiety

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cmy_47 March 19 2011, 16:18:55 UTC

Hmm...know that feelin'. Like your brain can't decide what emotion to feel about this specific incident/subject. It's like even your mind can't make its mind up. Believe me, I've been through that. An' I still haven't found a solution. Don't think I could help ye here. Sorry ( ... )

llybian March 19 2011, 16:36:16 UTC

Yeah... I think it's best just to not dwell on it. Spending all that time mulling over past mistakes (or... not mistakes at all) isn't that productive ( ... )

cmy_47 March 20 2011, 11:32:40 UTC

People with Messiah-complexes an' the means to carry out their goals are arguably the most dangerous people on Earth. Not for Justice, or Revenge, but for Survival, should this directive be implemented: Terminate With Extreme Prejudice ( ... )

llybian March 20 2011, 14:39:58 UTC

Really? I'm definitely on the side of the fusion magic being the caused. From my perspective, since black magic means destruction and holy magic means birth, then the combination of the two would be re-birth.

XD Ovaltine Jenkins might have been my favorite.

She hasn't yet! But then again I've only written two... and looking at the prompts... well, at least I pick on Xellos a lot too.

Yes, they're very serious about security.

He's welcome to them if he wants them :D *shot* Not likely.

smallwinds March 19 2011, 21:55:12 UTC

Ooh, Chinese letter background for the Misty graphic? Very pretty...

And love the Slayers friendship background! I'm going to use it on my Google homepage! :D

Anyway, I really hope you feel better. I've been feeling the same way myself last year, when I transferred to a new school...But I guess it went away with time. Part of it is finding friends that make you feel loved! :D Good luck!

llybian March 19 2011, 22:04:40 UTC

Yep :) I have a lot of decorative handwriting brushes and a few of them have Chinese lettering.

Thanks :D Glad you like it! I really wish I had a bigger scan of the image that's from. I cleaned up the lunchbox photograph on Beloved Enemy as best I could because it's just such a cute image.

You know, maybe it *is* because I just transfered to a new school this year too. It just takes awhile to get comfortable I guess. But I'm sure I'll get used to it. Thanks!

smallwinds March 19 2011, 23:00:27 UTC

You're welcome! Your graphics are always so pretty...

Ah, right! You transferred too! That's probably why... I remember last year, at least during the first semester, I felt like I had to put up a front all the time. Social interactions felt so draining... But after I got to know people better, it felt a lot more natural! So just keep it up! I'm sure you'll do fine! :D

dracomaleficium March 21 2011, 10:39:48 UTC

That. I know that feeling so well. It's been my constant companion ever since I developed a more active social life than kindergarten. And the worst thing is that for the most part you *know* it's ridiculous and that it's all in your head, but you keep on doing that, doubting everything, worrying how whatever you do or say will be received - being aware of it only deepens this sense of anxiety and you begin not only second-guessing, but also third-, fourth-, fifth-guessing yourself. It's paranoid, but I have yet to find a way of dealing with it. It's easy to say: "Don't care what other people think about you and just be yourself," but it's a little tricky if you have the notion that you are partly who other people think you are. Because it does matter. We are social animals and we do need the reassurance that the society accepts us ( ... )

llybian March 21 2011, 17:19:45 UTC

I always have been kinda paranoid, so I guess it's not much of a surprise. It might just be rearing its head now because I've transfered to a much smaller school so I see roughly the same people everyday and have stronger social ties. At my old campus it was an extreme rarity to have a class with someone and then have *another* class with them.

I don't have much of a social-drive, so I guess I'm just not used to it. Hopefully it'll ease with time. I feel like I *can* be social, but I just don't do it on automatic like some people seem to.

Thanks :D