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Feb 13, 2005 00:28

i cried for the first time in about 3 months yesterday. it was strange. a couple seconds after i cried, it felt good. it was like an emotional release. but then when reality hit me that i'm crying and that means that i'm feeling like shit, i started to feel like shit again ( Read more... )

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swtstarjasmines February 13 2005, 09:45:58 UTC
hey ang. i know we don't talk a lot n stuff...but i wanted to sympathize with you and let you know that you're not alone in feeling like this. the whole...give give and receive nothing especially when it comes to caring about friends. but unfortunately, I think some people don't realize that you're kinda hurt by the way they act because they think they're being normal by not asking about you or something. i hate feeling that way too..and i think a lot of times im in your position too. but you know what? that just means you're a very good friend and maybe your friends dont deserve you as much. but, well, that's just the way they are! so i'll commend you for being such a sensitive friend =] keep your chin up and don't stop being the nice person you are! one day there will be someone who really appreciates you for all you do. college will be a great time to meet new people =) k bye!

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lmixdemotionzl February 16 2005, 02:19:25 UTC
heyy jasmine. thanks so much for sympathizing with me and reaching out to me, even though we dont really talk all that much. we should talk more in chinese school since thats like the only place i see you =P

anyway, the stuff you said is true, and it helps to hear it. thanks jasmine! <333
i hope you dont feel the way i felt. if you ever do, know that i understand =)

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dysfnctionlpyr0 February 13 2005, 15:47:40 UTC
hi.. i'm sorry you feel that way :( i know we haven't really talked in a longg time and i dunno if that's part of it but :\ you can still talk to me anytime and i'll listen. i still love ya just like i still love tammy even though i go like 37493827286278 days without talking to her. anyway, i've felt like that manyy many times so i know that it sucks... :( even yesterday i was thinking about how i don't really have any girls i can hang out with besides veronica because everyone else has a bunch of other friends i don't feel comfortable around. sooo yeah I LOVE YOU and talk to me if you ever need to. <3

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lmixdemotionzl February 16 2005, 02:14:28 UTC
yeahh...we haven't talked that much lately. why is that?

i still love you toooo <33

yeah you know sometimes, when i'm talking to you, i feel like i'm not giving you as much attention as you deserve, so i think i'm gonna start changing that.

well if you ever want to hang out, just gimme a call <3
i totally feel the same way. i have like a bunch of close friends who all have their own groups. so its weirddd. lol.

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dysfnctionlpyr0 February 16 2005, 05:19:40 UTC
<333 yeah we should def hang out sometime... i should probably force myself to get better first though grrr. i need to learn to stop working so hard and let my body get over its problems.

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lmixdemotionzl February 18 2005, 04:09:12 UTC
yes we should!

are you still sick?

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aznkittyangel21 February 14 2005, 03:09:04 UTC
=( i'm sorry if i haven't been sensitive enough to your feelings. seems like everyone has a lot going on, and i don't want to use it as an excuse but i guess we've all been so absorbed in our own problems that we don't see when people are reaching out to us. if i don't ask and you want to talk, you should just say "shut up, i want to tell you stuff" =) you know i'm brain dead half of the time, so you must tell me that i'm being a butt! i don't knwo what it is but we've all been hit by like some baaaad aura or something that's making everyone feel like crap. =/ but just remember, there's always a rainbow after the storm. =) (er.. if the sun is BEHIND you =P *ha..ha..ha..* sorry ap physics joke -_- must stop being so dorky =X) with the bad times, there will be good later on! ^^ cheer up and you should talk to me if you need to. ;)

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lmixdemotionzl February 16 2005, 02:00:39 UTC
its okae lulu. you barely see me enough as it is, let alone to be sensitive to my feelings.
yeah there was so much drama going on with everyone lately...it sucks.

i do need to talk to you about something actually.

anyway, how about you? how are you? has the "bad aura" caught up to you too?

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aznkittyangel21 February 16 2005, 04:58:44 UTC
lol "bad aura" i dunno.. life is weird sometimes it seems like everything is falling down and i hate where i'm at, and other times.. it doesn't seem so bad. lol maybe i'm just moody -_-

talk to be about something? o.O now i'm uber curious!

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lmixdemotionzl February 18 2005, 04:10:46 UTC
lol i already talked to you about it online =P

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honeykisses February 14 2005, 06:13:52 UTC
Ang, I'm here when ya need.

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lmixdemotionzl February 16 2005, 01:52:43 UTC
thanks elaine!
i'll keep that in mind =)

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juicesqueeze February 15 2005, 22:07:46 UTC
Ya know, I find it kinda funny that not one person replied with a "how ARE you doing."

Everyone's saying oh you can talk to me whenever you want, basically dismissing the effort it takes to ASK instead of just "being available" to listen. Anyone can empty their heart out, but no one wants to bring themselves up to someone that is having a good day, that will just make them feel guilty for bringing shit into their lives.

So, all you that replied, it doesn't hurt to ASK HOW SHE'S DOING! >=[

Don't just say "I'm here" and be done with it. ASK, ASK, and ASK. People don't just open up randomly, it takes a little more knocking on the door than that.

And for everyones information, Angela could really use a little knocking. Her door is getting overgrown with ivy because no one is visiting.

Have a good day.

P.S. Did you get my letter yet angchi? =]

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lmixdemotionzl February 16 2005, 03:16:13 UTC
that is true. it is a big extra effort to ask how someone is doing, instead of just being there. its a lot easier just being there for someone than caring enough to ASK.

i DID get your letter YESTERDAY on valentines day =) did YOU get my ecard? lol.
so check your email! and also your myspace =)

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