hmmm...im happy...and sad at the same time...my son turns 5 today...and i cant help but wish hes ok...and smart...and good for his mother....i wonder if he thinks about me..cause i think about him...every second of every day...damn... im a father...with no child to hold or sing to sleep... well thats just my luck... i want things i cant have... ( Read more... )

I now have a car again...freedom.... freedom at last....
Last night was odd...i drank far more than my capacity and yet i wasnt to drunk...till later in the night...after jeffy recovered from his case of "drank to much to fast"....
i love my brothers...id die for you guys...

Well my friends another club night is upon us... and im determined to have some type of hardcore played tonight...so anyone who knows me...bring some disks with good shit on it.... then ill hold the dj at knife-point till our needs are fulfilled....ill be there in all my gansta-core clothes... yes i did say gansta-core fuck with me ( Read more... )

Well i went...it was weird...i didnt know what to do or say...my grandma is so cute...i had to put down in writing that id come visit her once a week...lol... and my sisters...you guys...theyve grown omg... and for nate and josh....jenny is chunky again...and completely insane...its awesome...my mom was really nice but i gave her hell...it was hard ( Read more... )

Go get your knife.....

Go get your knife.....

Im being forced to update my journal by this crazy lady..(yet very sexy)...in order for her to have something to read....help...shes pointing a lit cigarette at me...im scared ( Read more... )

ever get that sudden dose of reality..when you realize things arent perfect.... or right... blah... i guess im in one of my "goth moods"... i wish i has still a little bitch cutting myself in my basement... well atleast the pain of my tatt is still there....throbing...mmmm... im sick arent i ( Read more... )

Man...last night was perfect...the best yet... i have ALL of you on cam... fun fun... i was bit like 9 times... bruises everywhere.. hehe... it felt different... last night i mean.. ill bring the camy every week...but tod cut me off towards the end of the night... i guess he didnt like my light.. and thanks to my uncle.. none of my friends spent ( Read more... )

Man...TOOOOOOONIGHT!!!!... i cant wait to get drunk and stupid... not sure about the camcorder yet... im not sure if i want to constantly have it with me...and when i get drunk ill probably set it down and someone will take it... damn.. whatever... its drunken time tonight... and tomorrow i get to watch my arm get tattood... yay for half sleaves ( Read more... )

My brother and i are on the guest list for the taste of chaos tour!!!...my source pulled through...im going to this sold out show...i just walk up say my name and im in...HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!! suck me ticket master!!.. so yeah other then that im pretty fucking happy...*smile*.. i get to see killswitch engage...and my chemical romance...man... i need ( Read more... )