i don't feel so far away from you lately, love me on the sly

[lo0o0ony_lauren]

O HAI EVERYONE. I has birthday fic for Moog!
Title: Loose Ends
Fandom: The History Boys
Pairing: Irwin/Dakin
Summary: For moogle62 ’s birthday, because special occasions like birthdays deserve some kind of resolution. (I'm really sickly at the moment and can only apologise for all that follows. Hope you don’t hate it. ILU VERY MUCH.) Thanks go to cathamarine and strangeumbrella

Comments

[peak_in_darien]

[lo0o0ony_lauren]

I can't write the ol' Dirty Dirty Sex, as well you know, but Dakin/Irwin is the first pairing that's even made me come close to attempting it, which I guess illustrates clearly how MADE OF PORN they are. Anyways, glad you liked it!

(HOMOSEXUALITY IS NEVER
EVER
RIGHT)

[peak_in_darien]

[moogle62]

OH MY GOD LOZ I LOVE YOU.

SO MUCH.

NNNNNGGGGH AND ALSO UNFG AND I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO SAY FIRST (I LOVE YOUUUU), I HAVE TO GO AWAY AND RE-READ IT AND THINGS.

AJKADJSBHKJBVDDVKJBKJB ♥ ♥ ♥

[moogle62]

Right, okay, I have gone through and picked LINES OF WONDER out of all the other LINES OF JOY and have ended up with pretty much the entire fic in a Word document waiting to be pasted back here. NEVER MIND I shall throw my feelings at you regardless, because you are awesome and this is win and THANK YOU A LOT ILU SO MUUUUCH.

- Admittedly, he hadn’t really gone out intending to sleep with anyone - there was a brunette in a short short skirt who kept smiling at him out the corner of her eye and he’d thought, maybe - Here is when your Dakin came and smacked me in the face with his Dakin-ness, how do you do that?

- Dakin’s struggling to reconcile his memories of the party with ending up here, pressed into this depressingly seventies upholstery by someone whose name he’s fighting with drunken valiance to remember, but then there’s that breath again, ragged against his skin, and a sudden shock of lips and heat - I don't think I actually had anything sensible to say here other than HI DAKIN and I adore the phrase 'drunken valiance' and I

[moogle62]

AHAHAHA, lj comment limits I laugh at you!

Here we go, more fangiriling:

- If he looks to his left, he will be able to see the couple two tables away whose argument is slowly escalating, or the waitress who looks like she’d rather be anywhere else, or the silhouette of the word ‘café’, backwards on the green tile floor. Looking straight ahead isn’t really an option. - Loz, stop being so good at using words now (plz don't). Scene-setting brilliance, my dear.

- Dakin looks left. At the counter there is a thin, bespectacled man studying the chalk boards nailed to the wall, and Dakin finds himself saying oh my God Irwin too loudly and the man looks round and their eyes meet. - I may have actually gone 'EEEEEEEE OH MY GOD' here, I don't remember (lies, I totally did).

- And Dakin says, no, no I’m not, actually can it wait? He can still hear his father spluttering as he crosses the room, but Irwin exhales his name like a secret and he’s gripping the counter almost for support, and since when did the room get so large, why on earth is it

[lo0o0ony_lauren]

AIEEEE KWDNGKDSNGSDNGS YOUR MASSIVE REVIEW FILLED ME WITH SUCH GLEE

I JUST

NNNGH

ILU SO MUCH AND I'M SO GLAD YOU LIKED IT AND UNNNNNNNNFGGGGG.

ALSO I HAVE A MASSIVE COLD/VIRUS TYPE THING AND MY THROAT/NOSE/CHEST ARE MISBEHAVIN', BUT I JUST DRAGGED MYSELF OUT OF THE HOUSE FOR A FEW HOURS TO WATCH JON RICHARDSON DO STAND-UP (HENCE NOT REPLYING TO YOUR TEXTS, SRY ♥) SO BASICALLY I'M QUITE OVER-EXCITED BECAUSE I LOVE HIM SO MUCH

I'M HOPPED UP ON COLD MEDS AND I
DON'T
CARE
WHO
KNOWS
IT

oh god moog i think i've gone a bit wrong

ANYWAYS ILU BB OKAY XXXXX

!!

[jiazho]

THIS IS AMAZING.

I don't even like Dakin but the way you write Dakin always completely kills me.

And Irwin too!:
Irwin didn’t stay a teacher for very long, but before he left he’d already learned to tell the time of day by the slump of their shoulders, the angle of them, almost to the minute. Now that he’s a journalist he just wears a watch. It’s not the same.
and and and
(Incidentally, his best friend at secondary school had his first kiss there, behind the bikesheds; different sheds and different bikes, naturally, but the principle was the same. Irwin was in love with him for years, for years without him ever so much as noticing. Irwin was Posner once.

Only not as brave.)

*swoons*

Dakin and Irwin and their ethics and the way they turn out (working 'in govnerment' grrr! corporate jetsetting lawyer bwwwwaaah!) infuriate me so very much but how they are that way and what they are besides that way as how you've illustrated it is pushing them into backup-tp territory.

Re: !!

[lo0o0ony_lauren]

This comment honestly pleased me so much. I love Dakin, but I'm never sure if I acutally like him that much - I think I love him as a character, but I'm not sure he's the kind of person I'd want to know in real life - and yet I find him so intriguing and I adore writing him, so the idea that I've somehow managed to make you, I don't know, tolerate him or, or...I'm having a mental couple of minutes right now and all the words are gone, but basically it filled me all up with glee.

Also, from your wonderful fic I would assume that you're mainly a Posner/Scripps person? I really like that pairing and intend to have a crack at writing them next, so, you know. Wish me luck [as you wave me goodbye], basically!

[jiazho]

That's very exciting to hear. I can't wait to read it

[lo0o0ony_lauren]

That's a really interesting bit of writing, there, that I'm not entirely I'm qualified to deal with (partially due to having just woken up), but I shall have a go nonetheless, because being underqualified has never really stopped me doing anything. :)

Posner is tragic is so many ways that I just want him to be taken care of, you know?
I do know. (Bizarrely, one of the only notes I have for the Scripps/Posner I'm snails pace-ing away at is, "Scripps wanted to look after Posner and he didn't know why".)

I find it interesting that you look at Dakin and Irwin from that angle, because it's one I really never considered - personally, I always saw Dakin and Irwin's story as, I suppose, the antithesis of that culture of personal gain. I don't think either of them end up happy. That line, Dakin's epilogue about how "of course I'm happy I'm a tax lawyer I make loads of money", it just sounds like such a lie. I'm not sure why I thought of it like that. Something about Dakin's over-confidence and desperation to be loved by everyone made me

yes.

[solvent90]

And suddenly there’s a pause, a breath where it feels like history might just rattle over the points anyway, in spite of everything, in spite of both of them.

Just that - yes. This is the Dakin/Irwin story I've been aching for (and failing to write on and off) ever since I saw the play. Every bit of it, note-perfect. I love your character voices and the little ironies and your DAKIN. And oh, I love the structure so much, the way the little scenes don't follow from each other, except in that way that they do. Loose ends, yes.

Re: yes.

[lo0o0ony_lauren]

Nnngh. You've written some of my favourite fics in this fandom and I did a little bit of a hand-shaky dance (think: Wallace and Gromit) when I got this comment. Seriously, thank you so much.

[strangeumbrella]

OH LOZ, I CONTINUE TO BE COMPLETELY UNABLE TO CONVEY HOW MUCH I LOVE THIS FIC. <333333 I love the ending like I love...idk, Sam in pyjamas. SEE ME SEARCH MY SOUL FOR SOMETHING COMPARITIVELY AS GREAT.

Between Dakin’s legs there is a man
Apart from everything else, ok, I really just love the order of those words. I CAN'T MAKE IT SOUND LESS MAD THAN THAT, SORRY.

He says don’t call me sir, Dakin, please. And Dakin says, well, okay, so don’t call me Dakin, and holds out a hand for him to shake.
AND HERE BASICALLY I DIE

[lo0o0ony_lauren]

Lol late comments but LJ DIDN'T TELL ME I HAD THIS (die, LJ) AND I WANTED TO SAY THANKS <333333333

ILU ♥