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It shouldn't hurt this much, should it?
I mean, it was only a ship, only a thing of machinary and wood. It wasn't a person--thankfully of all those seemed to pull through this fine--nor was it anything irreplacable. I know that I can easily buy another, but I don't want another. I want that ship, the ship I was too stupid to fly properly.
It...feels like I lost her all over again. I think that's the major problem with this. It feels just as it did the first time I found the wreckage, but I don't know if I can bring myself to rebuild it. If I crash it again...
It shouldn't have happened. I don't recall why it happened. It just seemed to...loose control when the world shook. I should have been able to catch it; I'm not that poor of a pilot.
I deserve all the scars I'll get from the crash and all the pain that stays with me. Really, I deserve more than that.
Goddess, I'm sorry. I'm sorry I crashed your beautiful airship and that I failed you.
....forgive me....
Home at the Castle again and none the worse for the wear! I guess it's time to check on everyone and be sure that no one's too bereft without me.