bukowski was one ugly motherfucker ( Read more... )

 This week in Macroeconomics I learned that I've basically wasted well over $50,000 in time alone on a single person.

Scary eh?

Someone manage my portfolio.

'i just cant believe the things we say'
with more faces
than a sleazy high-school gang-bang.
its sloppy at best
and disgusting in general.
and in the end everyobody gets fucked.

we all know who will be affected by who we say these things to.
we all know its gonna negatively affect everyone, even you.
i detonated whatever little social bombshell
my ( Read more... )

i just spent 30 minutes writing a fucking book of an update but lost it due to a misplaced mouse click.

well, not everything.

"He laughed because he thought they could not hit him; he didnt imagine that they were just practicing to miss..." - Bertolt Brecht

Knowing that I am a constant void, and that I am rarely actually happy with what I have leaves me feeling selfish, foolish, suicidal, crazy, and depraved. Yesterday was one of the worse days I've had during my 'detox' (if substituting ethanol with narcotics counts as detox) Between soul-crushing dreamscapes, I live my life always hoping for the ( Read more... )

 
So the long ass shitty story of my ruined week. I should do an lj cut, but I don't care.

Wednesday morning when I woke up, I started vomiting. Towards the end of it, about 3 shot glasses worth of bright red blood came up. Thursday, whenever I had a bowel movement, it was absolutely pitch black, because it was digested blood. I was light headed and ( Read more... )

my homie diana g. is going to come to new york at the same time as angela, phillipe and i! i just figured out yesterday ( Read more... )

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