I have been working on this for ever and I am ready to end it all. It is boring and irrelevant. My life is going much better than in my last post. Besides the fact that I am limited in my guitar playing through my own time and the fact that my neighbor has to study alot and I don't won;t to disturb him since he asked me not to play occasionally ( Read more... )

I am dealing better. I wish I could get more answers from many people. I changed the profile in the way I was supposed to. I am working up the courage to talk to my parents on Saturday. I just feel so bad for them because they are worried enough as it is. I guess it is like that old saying ( Read more... )

I went to church this morning with Cody. I guess I was a Catho. It was good though. It is funny how God finds ways to speak to me when I need him the most. We had a Texas party on Friday night and it was alright. The food was good. The music was good. I think one of my best friends is pissed at me. He hasn't answered his phone for me in ( Read more... )

I am so freaking tired. We just worked out again. I need to read but am having trouble focusing. I need to learn how to apply eye shadow to myself....

Me and Cody worked out today, a little too hard I think. I could barely drive home afterwards. Last night I got to meet a feller friend of one of my good friends. He seemed alright. Anywho, I gots to go read some bull-honkey. Have a good one.

Well, today is 10/10. Somebody special to me once told me it was "Happy Day". And sure enough, I have started to regain some of the joy I lost. I still will not be really happy until communication happens again, but I am definately doing a little better. It is like I drilled into rock bottom, farther than ever, and now I have drawn out my ( Read more... )

Last night I tried reading the Bible a little and nothing seemed to talk to me much. I prayed and opened the Bible to Ezra, a book I have never really thought about before. It is about a unit that had been broken down for years and later rebuild even stronger. I thank God for leading me there as it has helped ( Read more... )

The first smile in a long itme came across my face today when I read the words "living life and enjoying it". The smile soon subsided as I am not fully there yet, but this still meant the world to me.

Last night I tried reading the Bible a little and nothing seemed to talk to me much. I prayed and opened the Bible to Ezra, a book I have never really thought about before. It is about a unit that had been broken down for years and later rebuild even stronger. I thank God for leading me there as it has helped ( Read more... )

Thursday I thought I was going to be called on so I studied my butt off. I did not get called on. I will be first on Tuesday. I have come home this weekend. It has been alright. It is still not the proper time for my parents to know. I have studied alot and thought a lot. I just keep coming to one conclusion ( Read more... )