So, yesterday I stayed up all night with Shane because they were leaving around 3. I made coffee, breakfast, and chocolate silk pie. I had two cups of coffee around 3. I haven't had coffee since August. This must be what falling off the wagon is like. For about two hours, I think I felt like I just mainlined an 8ball of coke. Or at least what I ( Read more... )

I got a gift in the mail today from Beka ( Read more... )

Went to my high school with daddy yesterday to see all of the faculty take pies to the face. It was thoroughly enjoyable. My principal had full on protective eye gear and a huge ass rubber apron. haha. It was fun. I've missed that place. How many people actually miss their principal? But that woman saved my ass. Literally. She was my obi wan after ( Read more... )

Monday was mom's birthday. She was kinda pissed it fell on MLK day. hah. Birthday cake and medium rare steak was nice, though. Especially the steak part. It's been two years since I've had steak. And it fucking rocked. I forgot how good steak was, especially when it's closer to rare than medium-rare. Mmm ( Read more... )

Let's see where to begin... Things haven't gotten any easier or better on any front. The manager at whispering oaks went on maternity leave and her replacement gave my apartment away. But hey, I was refunded the deposit. wtf? My only other option is Beau Chenes. It's the only other one that's close to the hospitals (umc/lourdes). And I only want ( Read more... )

Not really. They just don't understand things. I'm not mad. Mostly just upset with myself. Because I want to do things and see people, and I can't. And I'm not allowed to drive anymore after the whole kitchen fiasco. YOU pass out ONE time for a couple minutes and everyone freaks the fuck out. And next time I go back for an appointment or admission ( Read more... )

I don't know what I did. Maybe leaving the house was a bad idea. Maybe acting normal and holding it in all day did it. I remember Sundays were the worst for me in Lafayette because I held it all in for the shows and shit and to try to keep up appearances until he'd go to work. Then, I could lock myself in my room and just die a little and pass out ( Read more... )

Today was a REALLY good day. It ended so wonderfully. I knew I did too much and would feel the after effects by morning. I just hadn't imagined this. I'm really tired. All of this has completely destroyed me. I used to be the strong one. And I'm not anymore ( Read more... )

Despite the fact that I do nothing but ooze misanthropical teen angst as of late, I really badly am starting to embrace those nasty sorority girl tendancies again. It's perhaps a side effect of being stuck in front of a tv 24hrs a day w/ nothing else but high speed internet to entain me. But how dichotomous is it for me to be so blatantly obsessed ( Read more... )

Been trying to save up a bit of money for some stuff. I really hate popping vicodin because that really can't be good. So, I've been talking about these herbs for a while. Some of them are apparently quite potent. Corydalis Yanhusuo is very very strong, just very very bitter. Check out ktbotanicals.com and look it up. 1/2 a gram is roughly equal or ( Read more... )