I am in much higher spirits tonight. Even though work didn't go as good as the prior days. Crystal talked to me tonight and it's amazing how that changed my mood all together. It's the little things in life that I like i guess. Well that's all I have to say for tonight.

My whole life no one wanted to take care of me unless forced to do so. I found out a few years back that my mother only wanted my sister and that I was never planned to have, that after my sister there were to be no more. Then I find out that my father wanted a son instead of me. NEVER WANTED ( Read more... )

I start a new job tomorrow night. I can't wait to get my paycheck so I can get started saving up for insurance for my truck. I'm still working on getting my truck started back up. It's almost there. Now I will have less time to fix things on it since I'll be working. But whatever gotta clean the house.

Lately it seems like everyone always has to say shit to critsize or cut me down. I have been dealing with enough stress as is! I don't need any of this right now. I have been putting up with all of what people say even when it's not deserved for too long now. I say FUCK IT! My uncle has his final sentencing trial tomorrow morning. He might be ( Read more... )

It doesn't even seem like I've lived in Janesville. All that I've had or ever known has disappeared. All the happiness and friends all was a dream. The heartache and pain I've endeared was a nightmare. Now that I have finally woken up from my coma I now see that I am alone. No one sourrounding me or in my vision. The house is empty and all the ( Read more... )

My sister's friend Ambria asked if I wanted a job for 3rd shift because her job really needs it. So she is going to give me an app. sometime. It's a living treatment home tyoe thing i think she said. Um like old people live there and some not old I don't know. All I would be doing is cleaning and making stuff for them to eat in the morning. I' have ( Read more... )

My aunt's new thing is here so I have to isolate myself in my old room and stay on here for as long as possible because my sister wasn't feeliong good after she came over for dinner. It wasn't the food she said she just ate too much and so fast. I figured I would invite her and her fiance over dinner because financially they aren't doing too good ( Read more... )

For the past week I have been in my complacement and tranquil stage when I sleep because of the dreams that I have been having. Like where I am with someone and going out with them, being real happy. Then when I wake up every morning I am crushed because they are only dreams and not reality. All I want is to be with someone and give them almost all ( Read more... )

What can I say... hm. Well my aunt promised me that we were going to go look for a job again tomorrow I think she said. Oh well sometime before Sunday I know that for sure. This sucks. I have no job again for the 4th time this year. Well within a year. ::sigh:: I've spent most of the week on and off over at my sister's house. I still haven't made ( Read more... )

Have you ever been somewhere and thought that everything was going to be just fine and better than it was before? Or that you think maybe it's too good to be true and you finally realize the most important thing that you were too blind to see because you just black it out? I thought moving back here to Racine was the best decision I could make and ( Read more... )