I really suck, but in a good way. :)
I need to update more. Not that you all have been eagerly awaiting my particular brand of wisdom, but I have just not been as into journalling this summer as I have been in the past. Perhaps this is due largely to the fact that I am not broken this summer and have been absolutely relishing that fact. Last year, frankly, sucked for me.
So, what's up? In general I have been enjoying my family and friends, working outside making my environment beautiful, reclaiming my living room as a personal sanctuary, trying to figure out who my ancestors were, and re-evaluating the path that I am on career-wise. I need and desire a change, but the practical side of me does not want to initiate anything right now because I want to remain available to the nursery. I really feel that any changes to the organizational structure there will be incredibly sudden when they come. Additionally, there is that ongoing search for property that could affect what it might be necessary/possible for me to do for a living. I am feeling more comfortable with a status quo and wait and see approach right now. I don't have to work myself into a snit worrying about what I should do until necessary, but for some reason turning 35 and watching my friends and family go through changes and unexpected upheavals in life has really put me in a place where I want nothing more than to work at the things I enjoy, be contented and happy, and just maybe do something that will make a difference to someone.
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Has anyone read The Red Tent by Anita Diamant? nuttykat insisted I read it and I absolutely loved it. I loved it so much that while reading it at the lake yesterday I got so immersed that I forgot where I was and got the worst sunburn ever. I love it. Go, now - find it and read it.
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My current willingness to babble is surpassed only by my current unwillingness to do something productive - a sure sign that I am slacking so I should probably get on it. :)
So, what's up? In general I have been enjoying my family and friends, working outside making my environment beautiful, reclaiming my living room as a personal sanctuary, trying to figure out who my ancestors were, and re-evaluating the path that I am on career-wise. I need and desire a change, but the practical side of me does not want to initiate anything right now because I want to remain available to the nursery. I really feel that any changes to the organizational structure there will be incredibly sudden when they come. Additionally, there is that ongoing search for property that could affect what it might be necessary/possible for me to do for a living. I am feeling more comfortable with a status quo and wait and see approach right now. I don't have to work myself into a snit worrying about what I should do until necessary, but for some reason turning 35 and watching my friends and family go through changes and unexpected upheavals in life has really put me in a place where I want nothing more than to work at the things I enjoy, be contented and happy, and just maybe do something that will make a difference to someone.
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Has anyone read The Red Tent by Anita Diamant? nuttykat insisted I read it and I absolutely loved it. I loved it so much that while reading it at the lake yesterday I got so immersed that I forgot where I was and got the worst sunburn ever. I love it. Go, now - find it and read it.
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My current willingness to babble is surpassed only by my current unwillingness to do something productive - a sure sign that I am slacking so I should probably get on it. :)