Weeeeeee
A little whining, dont mind me.
Meh, the biggests reasons I was looking so forward to going to Singapore was A) being able to spend time with my sister, and B) chill out w/my friends and I guess C)maybe gaming and or getting new clothes or spending money, dont ask me how thats related.
My parents, I dont fault them, have my sister very busy with up to 5 classes a day, about an hour a piece, anything from Piano to Jewish study to Swimming etc. My dad's taken an interest in spending more time with me and us and we're spending more family time. I don't know, I don't mind the whole family scene, but I guess I was really looking forward to some time just chilling at Borders or something.
Playing tennis and running around is fine, just tiring/exhausting.
In part to the hacker and my loss of almost all my contacts, I can't really chat with anyone I knew here before, but most of those I only know so so. One person I was looking forward to spending time, especially now that I managed to get cleaned up, was this chick who had a crush on me and we didnt really get a chance to go out. We were good friends anyways, and I didnt really care what, just that'd it'd be fun to go out, and do anything and just hang out again. Anyways, turns out she left for a week and didnt have too much time to say bye. Haven't a clue when she's back.
Another group of friends I got to know cause they were taking professional classes at the university same time I was, and we used to go out and game together. Apparantly they/she(main person in the group) may be busy for a while, will see them next weekend . . . so long.
Haven't really done much otherwise, just feeling Lonely, exhausted from working out, playing tennis almost everyday and not having a hell of a lot of fun.
Meh, I've changed. I used to really enjoy just gaming but these days Warcraft 3 almost exclusively plays Dota and I'm not sure if I do or do not hate that game. No good books, and it's all just mind killing right now.
I want choas.
Listening to hard techno is a good start.
I read a wonderful story called Pi Man, certainly perpetuated my mood.
I want to roleplay choas, destruction, meaningless violence.
Mostly roleplay cause I don't feel like getting up or dealing with the consequences.
That and I feel like using enough of my noggin to forget about other things.
I noticed that I work better when I'm in a semi depressed mood cause I'm too apathetic to protest doing things.
Hell, I'd write a wonderful story now, as long as it involved gore and destruction. Fuck, why not, just need to get up the initiative.