Guys in Ties stuff
Mneh.
I feel crazy-ish.
Christian is walking down the hallway.
Thomas is walking beside him. They are discussing some esoteric thing.
Avery is following, about 5 steps behind. He appears to be absorbed in The Collected Poems of e. e. cummings. Christian gave it to him for Christmas. It seems that he’s not put it down since. He must have read it at least three times through. He’s just started it a fourth time.
Will is standing in a doorway. Watching.
Actually, everyone is watching everyone else. Excepting Christian, of course. He doesn’t watch people. He looks at Thomas, admires Avery, keeps an eye out for Will, and generally observes his surrounds, but he doesn’t watch anyone.
Will, on the other hand, is watching everyone.
God, why doesn’t Christian just keep the fuck away from Avery? Christian…Christian ruins people. Like he ruined Thomas. Like he’s going to ruin Avery. I hate him. I hate the way his eyes don’t even have to meet yours to affect you. I hate the way his hair falls in his eyes and how he irritatedly brushes out of the way. I hate the way he’s got Avery on a leash. The boy follows him around like a puppy. It’s pathetic. God, why can’t Avery just be a fucking man? Why does he have to be so fucking beautiful and delicate…he’s just begging for something to happen to him. If it hasn’t already. I hope it hasn’t. I hope to god it hasn’t. What would Father say?
Will slips from the doorway, goes back to his room, and proceeds to spend the evening getting drunk.
It doesn’t help.
I feel crazy-ish.
Christian is walking down the hallway.
Thomas is walking beside him. They are discussing some esoteric thing.
Avery is following, about 5 steps behind. He appears to be absorbed in The Collected Poems of e. e. cummings. Christian gave it to him for Christmas. It seems that he’s not put it down since. He must have read it at least three times through. He’s just started it a fourth time.
Will is standing in a doorway. Watching.
Actually, everyone is watching everyone else. Excepting Christian, of course. He doesn’t watch people. He looks at Thomas, admires Avery, keeps an eye out for Will, and generally observes his surrounds, but he doesn’t watch anyone.
Will, on the other hand, is watching everyone.
God, why doesn’t Christian just keep the fuck away from Avery? Christian…Christian ruins people. Like he ruined Thomas. Like he’s going to ruin Avery. I hate him. I hate the way his eyes don’t even have to meet yours to affect you. I hate the way his hair falls in his eyes and how he irritatedly brushes out of the way. I hate the way he’s got Avery on a leash. The boy follows him around like a puppy. It’s pathetic. God, why can’t Avery just be a fucking man? Why does he have to be so fucking beautiful and delicate…he’s just begging for something to happen to him. If it hasn’t already. I hope it hasn’t. I hope to god it hasn’t. What would Father say?
Will slips from the doorway, goes back to his room, and proceeds to spend the evening getting drunk.
It doesn’t help.