Do I exist in this world, or is this just a dream? I mean how do I tell if I am real or just someones dream gone off the end? I wonder everynight when I go to sleep if they'll awake and I won't be here anymore. Even worse I wake up and I'm jacked into a machine that is meant to keep me alive. I'm not talking like The Matrix shit, I don't even know ( Read more... )

Another sleepless night has passed. I know that I have done wrong by so many. The time to repent for things I've done is passed. I can only ask for forgiveness. But, I don't deserve to be forgiven. Everyone that gets close to me I push away. I know that one day I'm going have to lower my defenses and let someone in. I guess that I'm not as tough as ( Read more... )

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Take the quiz: "What Kind of Soul Do You Retain?"

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Everyone has nightmares right, but how many people do you have nightmares where they can't tell if it's real or not. I'm one of those special cases where the nightmare is so real that I don't want to sleep because I have no option but to relive it everynight I sleep. Okay so it kind of freaky. Not in the since that I'm have sex or doing something ( Read more... )

why do i act the way i do. is it because i'm afraid to let anyone get close to me again. i don't want to feel this kind of pain. it's like i kno i care about people but when they get close i instinctly push them away as fast as i can. that's the only way that i can avoid giving so much to someone again. no one understands what i go through. i kno i ( Read more... )

I want to share some poems of mine with you all. They aren't all that great but yea this is going to be my longest journal entry ever. Trust me. They are under both my name William Spence and Loki Regara ( Read more... )

Ok. To start off this is not to you Karole. So I was talking to this girl cuz she saw my LJ that says no will on it. And she was wonderin what that was all about so I told her that she wouldn't understand and then I told her bye. She goes off the deep end about how I'm being mean and shit. I have to stop what I'm doing; which was getting dress; to ( Read more... )

Ok I went to my math class and I didn't have to go to my english class. So I slept the day away

... no will ... Ok. So I think I got one person who would be happier if I wasn't ever around. But yea so it doesn't bother me. Oh so yea it's funny. People say one thing when they talk to you but when they write their journal they say something totally different. And they wonder why I don't like the human race. Oh don't get me wrong there are some ( Read more... )