Home Again.
The beach is a great place for soul-searching. I realized a few things about my life which will probably not have much of an impact on me, in the long run, but of which I'm glad I've come to be cognizant.
I'm not a great thinker. I'm slow and tedious when it comes to figuring things out. I'm not outstandingly creative or talented in any one area, save for art and maybe music. This will never change because I've never been motivated and I never will be. I'm interested in simply making do and I'm not especially driven to achieve greatness. I'll probably be happy with my life however it turns out. I won't win any Nobel prizes. I may do research that no one's ever done before, but it will be of marginal importance in the grand scheme of things, simply because that's the nature of the work I like to do. I'm not a particle physicist who probes the stuff of the universe. I'm not a psychologist who analyzes the human mind. I'm not a doctor who will cure cancer. I'm a chemistry student and I probably won't get beyond the Master's level. But I'm okay with all that. I'm happy with the way things are and the way things are headed, though I could probably stand to improve my grades a little. (Who couldn't?)
I take a lot of things for granted. I have been unfathomably fortunate thus far in my life. I'm not cursed with a below-average intellect. I'm fortunate to have parents with well-paying careers who can support a comfortable lifestyle. I go to an excellent school and I have great friends. I'm even moderately gifted in art, something about which I'm constantly selling myself short because, as I said, it's only a moderate talent; and I have musical and scientific aptitude. Between those three things, I'm bound to find something to do with my life other than flip burgers.
I'd like to do more traveling. I enjoy seeing places and encountering all sorts of people. I'm hungry for experience but I don't want to get old. I'd like to find a loving partner with whom I can share some of these experiences (though not all), but that will come on its own. I realize that these are the best days of my life, and I'm trying to soak them up and enjoy them as best I can before they're gone.
And now I'm off to update my facebook photo album with vacation pictures. I'll post a link when I'm done.
Edit: Link.
I'm not a great thinker. I'm slow and tedious when it comes to figuring things out. I'm not outstandingly creative or talented in any one area, save for art and maybe music. This will never change because I've never been motivated and I never will be. I'm interested in simply making do and I'm not especially driven to achieve greatness. I'll probably be happy with my life however it turns out. I won't win any Nobel prizes. I may do research that no one's ever done before, but it will be of marginal importance in the grand scheme of things, simply because that's the nature of the work I like to do. I'm not a particle physicist who probes the stuff of the universe. I'm not a psychologist who analyzes the human mind. I'm not a doctor who will cure cancer. I'm a chemistry student and I probably won't get beyond the Master's level. But I'm okay with all that. I'm happy with the way things are and the way things are headed, though I could probably stand to improve my grades a little. (Who couldn't?)
I take a lot of things for granted. I have been unfathomably fortunate thus far in my life. I'm not cursed with a below-average intellect. I'm fortunate to have parents with well-paying careers who can support a comfortable lifestyle. I go to an excellent school and I have great friends. I'm even moderately gifted in art, something about which I'm constantly selling myself short because, as I said, it's only a moderate talent; and I have musical and scientific aptitude. Between those three things, I'm bound to find something to do with my life other than flip burgers.
I'd like to do more traveling. I enjoy seeing places and encountering all sorts of people. I'm hungry for experience but I don't want to get old. I'd like to find a loving partner with whom I can share some of these experiences (though not all), but that will come on its own. I realize that these are the best days of my life, and I'm trying to soak them up and enjoy them as best I can before they're gone.
And now I'm off to update my facebook photo album with vacation pictures. I'll post a link when I'm done.
Edit: Link.