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[lokifin]

I cried for Bastien today. I haven't cried for him since he went missing weeks ago. But I cried for him today, because I miss him and I feel guilty that I lost him and I wish I could have been there to protect him and love him at the end, to share his death and ease his fear and discomfort. To tell him that I love him and I'm sorry he can't hold on

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[gemsweater]

:(

I'm so sorry, Laurel.

[sunnyredux]

Reading this made me tear up. Laurel, I am so sorry. It's just horrible to lose someone you love that way, without being able to say goodbye. I can't even really imagine how hard it must be; losing Corky was difficult but it wasn't the same as what you're going through.

I always feel like a pet's death is really in its own category of loss, because they're dependent on us, and we know when we take them in that we will have to see them die, even if it's years away. Sort of like having a child you know you'll outlive, so there are all those feelings of guilt there, even when you know you did everything you could. It's just so hard. But you loved Bastien and he loved you, and I hope someday you can remember the good memories more easily than the memory of how he left.

*bighugs*

[apwoh]

*HUGS* Losing a pet is the worst. Bastien knew that you loved him. *MORE HUGS*

[sassachusetts]

I'm really sorry. :(