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Hello.
Here are some things that are happening/have happened/might happen.
Work -
6 years ago 'they' promised us they would *definitely not* close our GY office.
5 years ago 'they' closed our GY office. I'm used to this. It's okay.
We were a National Service, but 'they' changed this and made us into individual Trusts.
3 years ago 'they' decided to privatise half the service and make the rest into a National Service.
I am in the National Service. The Private sector (how can you ethically create businesses to make money from crime?) see fewer and fewer people and do less and less with them.
The National Service is now creating a new working model.
They want us to have a 'mobile' workforce. So they are going to move people to switch roles. The longer someone has been in a role the higher up the "switch" list they move. So for example, I have worked with Sex Offenders since I qualified, I am the most experienced in my team, it's a job that (impossible targets aside) I do very well - I am now near the top of the list to be shunted to work in another role - maybe with young offenders or in a prison. This will involve me doing a role I very much do not want to do, have no knowledge, experience or ability in and in a location I don't want to be in. In order to find me such a role, the person in the prison/YOT will be moved to work in the community with Sex Offenders...
The uncertainty is horrible.
Oh - and our lease on our office building runs out soon, so we need a new location. Top on the list at the moment is the GY office....
Oh and to add insult to injury, I work in a seaside town and we have seagulls nesting on our roof. We have been watching the nest get built and the mother sitting, tending to her eggs for the last three weeks. Awaiting the hatching and the babies. 'They' announced on Friday that Rentokill were coming this weekend to "get rid" of the nest. I HATE it. I'm so sad - I'm just hoping that rentokill failed to turn up as most of our contracters do. :(
I'm so behind on absolutely everything. I've got the entire season of SPN to watch, and at least 50% of H50. I fancied the look of Outcast, Want to watch Wentworth, wondered if The Night Manager was worth viewing and countless other things I can't remember I'm sure. I did watch The Danish Girl and found it very - I get swept up in movies, so don't always see the faults others do. I somehow managed to miss any spoilers about the outcome, so was taken aback at the ending and saddened. I was amazed at how ethereal and beautiful Eddie Redmayne was, and was smitten with Alicia Vikander. I did like it, but in quiet moments I can't help reflecting that I know no female that postures and gesticulates femininity in the same way!
What else? I continue to watch my food and attempt to exercise in increasing amounts. For most of my adult life when I have dreamed of flying it isn't with wings flapping, or swimming through the air - but of running on air. I wish I could run in real life, but apart from an increasingly dodgy Achilles and an innate clumsiness that makes the thought terrifying, I think I'd get odd looks running with a boob in each hand, the way I do when I 'jog' on the spot at home. I have lost a total of 5 stone now and have to be careful not to obsess. Although I do so quietly, as opposed to my work colleague who *every time* she sees me (ie at least twice a week) asks me how much I've lost and am I wearing "normal clothes" yet. She means nothing by it, but still!
Erm, anything else? I'm having some problems with emotions at the moment - Doc advised me to stop anti depressants, so I've done so, but am not doing brilliantly on it. Not sure how long the adjustments is supposed to last, or whether I should go back on them. I'm crying over utterly random things (a plant dying, spilled drinks), moderately saddening things (movie, the seagull, my hair) and truly awful things (shooting in Orlando par example), as well as a generally increased level of anxiety (if Paula and I do a vintage sale in August I will have to speak with people...I can't do that...) It's all rather tiring.
But I can still see!
Here are some things that are happening/have happened/might happen.
Work -
6 years ago 'they' promised us they would *definitely not* close our GY office.
5 years ago 'they' closed our GY office. I'm used to this. It's okay.
We were a National Service, but 'they' changed this and made us into individual Trusts.
3 years ago 'they' decided to privatise half the service and make the rest into a National Service.
I am in the National Service. The Private sector (how can you ethically create businesses to make money from crime?) see fewer and fewer people and do less and less with them.
The National Service is now creating a new working model.
They want us to have a 'mobile' workforce. So they are going to move people to switch roles. The longer someone has been in a role the higher up the "switch" list they move. So for example, I have worked with Sex Offenders since I qualified, I am the most experienced in my team, it's a job that (impossible targets aside) I do very well - I am now near the top of the list to be shunted to work in another role - maybe with young offenders or in a prison. This will involve me doing a role I very much do not want to do, have no knowledge, experience or ability in and in a location I don't want to be in. In order to find me such a role, the person in the prison/YOT will be moved to work in the community with Sex Offenders...
The uncertainty is horrible.
Oh - and our lease on our office building runs out soon, so we need a new location. Top on the list at the moment is the GY office....
Oh and to add insult to injury, I work in a seaside town and we have seagulls nesting on our roof. We have been watching the nest get built and the mother sitting, tending to her eggs for the last three weeks. Awaiting the hatching and the babies. 'They' announced on Friday that Rentokill were coming this weekend to "get rid" of the nest. I HATE it. I'm so sad - I'm just hoping that rentokill failed to turn up as most of our contracters do. :(
I'm so behind on absolutely everything. I've got the entire season of SPN to watch, and at least 50% of H50. I fancied the look of Outcast, Want to watch Wentworth, wondered if The Night Manager was worth viewing and countless other things I can't remember I'm sure. I did watch The Danish Girl and found it very - I get swept up in movies, so don't always see the faults others do. I somehow managed to miss any spoilers about the outcome, so was taken aback at the ending and saddened. I was amazed at how ethereal and beautiful Eddie Redmayne was, and was smitten with Alicia Vikander. I did like it, but in quiet moments I can't help reflecting that I know no female that postures and gesticulates femininity in the same way!
What else? I continue to watch my food and attempt to exercise in increasing amounts. For most of my adult life when I have dreamed of flying it isn't with wings flapping, or swimming through the air - but of running on air. I wish I could run in real life, but apart from an increasingly dodgy Achilles and an innate clumsiness that makes the thought terrifying, I think I'd get odd looks running with a boob in each hand, the way I do when I 'jog' on the spot at home. I have lost a total of 5 stone now and have to be careful not to obsess. Although I do so quietly, as opposed to my work colleague who *every time* she sees me (ie at least twice a week) asks me how much I've lost and am I wearing "normal clothes" yet. She means nothing by it, but still!
Erm, anything else? I'm having some problems with emotions at the moment - Doc advised me to stop anti depressants, so I've done so, but am not doing brilliantly on it. Not sure how long the adjustments is supposed to last, or whether I should go back on them. I'm crying over utterly random things (a plant dying, spilled drinks), moderately saddening things (movie, the seagull, my hair) and truly awful things (shooting in Orlando par example), as well as a generally increased level of anxiety (if Paula and I do a vintage sale in August I will have to speak with people...I can't do that...) It's all rather tiring.
But I can still see!