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Click to viewI did a thing with my hair. It's half red now. I don't know if I like it...
I was super stressed last week but then I remembered I'm a motherfucking magician and I feel better about my circumstances. Long story short, I let some people into my head and they made me feel insane and unappreciated. My feelings got hurt and I let that dictate every aspect of my self worth. I freaked out and started applying all over for jobs doing EXACTLY what I'm doing just in different buildings. So pretty much a "grass is greener" situation. I need to stick to my guns and if I really want to make a career change, I should just fully get out of eldercare because it's not forgiving and it's not easy and it's usually a lose-lose for almost anyone involved except, of course, for the shareholders...but that's another rant for another day.
One thing I do know is that I love my job when I'm actually doing what I'm supposed to be doing and not putting out other people's fires or listening to some corporate bullshit about "the numbers". I live for that feeling of when I'm in the discovery phase of a sale and that moment when I know I have them. When I'm the problem solver, the shoulder to cry on, the one who will listen and understand. I'm damn good at that shit.
Speaking of fires, a competitor just burned down. This will probably help me, not that I wished it.
One of my high school friends cut and colored my hair yesterday. We were chatting about people...as you do. She was convinced that my high school boyfriend died. I had not heard this; however, I have not heard from him for years... So I did some digging. I'm pretty sure he's still alive...but not entirely. He doesn't have a facebook page and according to anywho, he lives in Ohio. But his mother definitely died and she's still on anywho...so it's hard to tell if someone actually died. I couldn't find an obituary anywhere. I'm pretty sure a large Irish family would have at the very least an obituary. I might just bight the bullet and friend his little brother on FB and dig a little deeper. My friend really got me wondering. We also determined that her boyfriend from high school is also probably dead because he doesn't have a facebook. We're at that level of ridiculous...