"deep thoughts"
feeling better today emotionally.
but i think my chicken and spinach soup gave me the runs. since you know, i ate almost half the pot.
oh yeah and thanks Bingo Bob. now i think the entire family has teh sars.
i'm going to bring bags of cough drops and throw them at you.
shit i just spilled green tea all over myself.
i don't know, maybe i just feel resentful of the whole "your words say one thing, but your actions say another"
which i'm sure is what i was guilty of in the first place too. no one is ever without fault. it's easy to point fingers but in the end it takes two to tango.
so i'm sorry for fucking up on my end. it would have been nice if we were on the same page, in the same place in our lives, which wasn't the case.
so divorces are up from 1 in 2, to 2 in 3! why bother with marriage other than getting a bunch of cool presents? for those it works for, that's great. but it would be more of a gamble for me. i may be giving, but i can be incredibly selfish too.
i hear all the time how great i am and yadda yadda, but truth is, i'm just hard to live with.
you may be madly in love in the beginning, but people can change. and that change causes an irreparable rift.
it hurts.
i know some who supposedly don't believe in the "happy ending" but then do shit that makes me question what it is they do believe.
maybe it's that discrepancy that really made the difference.
i'm just glad i'm happy with myself.
i don't need someone else to complete my life; my life is complete in itself.
i was watching "I Hate my 30's" last night and some of it echoed some of my own sentiments.
"I'm going home to masturbate!"
don't get me wrong though. the company of others can be wonderful. in fact, i rreeeeeaaaaaaallly wanted a cuddle last night. i mean, badly.
so it's not like i'm asexual. or a misanthrope (though sometimes i come damn close! i mean really... most of the world sucks). someone that can put up with me would be wonderful.
it's not like i don't want anyone else, it's that i don't need anyone else.
i'm not scrambling for the attention of others because i don't need it. it's just nice when it finds me.
but i think my chicken and spinach soup gave me the runs. since you know, i ate almost half the pot.
oh yeah and thanks Bingo Bob. now i think the entire family has teh sars.
i'm going to bring bags of cough drops and throw them at you.
shit i just spilled green tea all over myself.
i don't know, maybe i just feel resentful of the whole "your words say one thing, but your actions say another"
which i'm sure is what i was guilty of in the first place too. no one is ever without fault. it's easy to point fingers but in the end it takes two to tango.
so i'm sorry for fucking up on my end. it would have been nice if we were on the same page, in the same place in our lives, which wasn't the case.
so divorces are up from 1 in 2, to 2 in 3! why bother with marriage other than getting a bunch of cool presents? for those it works for, that's great. but it would be more of a gamble for me. i may be giving, but i can be incredibly selfish too.
i hear all the time how great i am and yadda yadda, but truth is, i'm just hard to live with.
you may be madly in love in the beginning, but people can change. and that change causes an irreparable rift.
it hurts.
i know some who supposedly don't believe in the "happy ending" but then do shit that makes me question what it is they do believe.
maybe it's that discrepancy that really made the difference.
i'm just glad i'm happy with myself.
i don't need someone else to complete my life; my life is complete in itself.
i was watching "I Hate my 30's" last night and some of it echoed some of my own sentiments.
"I'm going home to masturbate!"
don't get me wrong though. the company of others can be wonderful. in fact, i rreeeeeaaaaaaallly wanted a cuddle last night. i mean, badly.
so it's not like i'm asexual. or a misanthrope (though sometimes i come damn close! i mean really... most of the world sucks). someone that can put up with me would be wonderful.
it's not like i don't want anyone else, it's that i don't need anyone else.
i'm not scrambling for the attention of others because i don't need it. it's just nice when it finds me.