Sadye

Aug 31, 2004 23:25

To elaborate on a comment I made yesterday:


Thank god for Sadye. I've known her since I was nine and we have been best friends ever since. We have to work very hard to maintain our friendship because of dificulties of location and how different our lives have become. We won't talk for a month because we are so busy besides the occasional im professing about how our life is frantic and we hope the other one gets some sleep soon! But then when we both free up we will be on the phone for three hours! I come out of those phone conversations feeling very happy and much less stressed then when I went into them. We are both very different but we not only tollorate each other's differences, but emrace them. Sadye, even though she is a spaniard, respects my love of french (even if she does joke that I'm crazy) and I know taht I will never be the kind of writer Sadye will be, but it doesn't make me jelous. I'm proud of her, just as I know she is proud of me.

I called her yesterday because I knew that I needed to be yelled at and I knew that she would not shrink from the task. We have grown comfortable with each other to be able to point out when the other one is being stupid and needs to calm down. I was stressing over things that were important but didn't deserve the degree of importance that I had given them, especially right now. Sadye was able to sit me down and point out that I was letting my douts get the better of me. Just because I hadn't magicly become the person I had hoped to be doesn't mean that I hadn't changed for the better since I was a freshman. And that I was also a wonderfull person just as I was. She reminded me that I while I might not have my entire career laid out before me down to whom I have to start sucking up to, I very organized about what I want from college and from life. She pointed out that most of the people who seem to have it all "figured out" want something completly different from what I want, and that it is good to leave room for what life throws at you.

We also talked about college as always but I have different kinds of college talks with her than I do with other people. We are both looking for different things out of a college but we don't pressure each other about the colleges we love. I don't yell at her for loving Weslyan (which I hated) and Swarthmore (which scares the hell out of me) and she doesn't yell at me for loving Colby (she doesn't aprove of their creative writing department) and Pomona (which would make us even farther away from each other).

I'm scared for what will happen to this friendship when my life drasticly changes next fall, but I'm hoping that we can pull through. Whether we end up 20 min away from each other (which actually might happen!) or all the way across the country, I hope that we can balence old and new friendships. I love Sadye to death and it would be so sad to lose such a wonderful person who has such an important place in my life.

Oh and if anyone cares, I'm done with Aristotle! Wohoo! Off to bed now.
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