I'm loosing a good friend. I guess in a way I am. I mean, I don't know what it has been lately, but it seems like Sierra is becoming more and more distant. I don't know why. Maybe I'm just imagining this, creating it from my own insecurities, or maybe it's true and she's slowly slpping away. That's depressing. Not to sound selfish or anything, but ( Read more... )

I've ever felt more helpless. I'm just so confused about life right now. I mean I'm questioning everything. I don't know what I want to do with myself, where I want to go to college, or what I want in general. I've even been questioning my belief in God. I feel like, what has He done foe me lately type thing. I don't even want to go to college. I'm ( Read more... )

My mother has got to be out of her fucking mind. After I show her the pictures we (me and my bestfriends) took in Canada she promptly says, "you guys have some lesbian action going on there, guys'll love that." What the hell. Then she asks me a little later, do you and your friends engage in lesian activities? What the hell... again. Not only has ( Read more... )

My neighbor is on that good stuff. I just woke up seeing as I didn't go to sleep until about 8 in the morning, but whatever. So I wake up and I hear "F*ck, f*ck, Goddammit!" continuously. I think he's yelling at his son at first, but then he rambles on about his honda. This man is trippin. I guess the car was stolen, so he got drunk and came ( Read more... )

I'm sick. I can't believe this! How does one get sick in the summer months? I don't know, but I'm convinced that it has something to do with the fact that I got sea water up my nose... This totally puts a whole in my plans. I wanted to work out, but you're not supposed to when you're sick. Grrrr... the enigmas of my life!

I's kinda funny how when you get out of the habit of writing how hard it is to return to the old way. For me it hasn't been the same since last summer, since I stopped writing out of distress. Now when I try to cleanse my head on the paper I still feel so very full. I'm realizing patterns that I don't know how to break. See I've realized that all ( Read more... )

Yeah, I know, but I'm still here still alive.. sort of, but anyway.... I'm 17 now!!! and I have more freedom (or so says they mother). I'm bored. I'm stressed and I have no idea what I'm doing with my life or why I still want the things I want. Who knew?

Perfrom-a-thon went fairly well, it wasn't like any other before, but none the less it was okay. We "restored" Inkster High's theater adn set up NTICD. I don't know... it was alright but I didn't feel as though I was doing a service cause there really wasn't much we could do... anyway, when we got back to mosaic we shared stories, blah blah blah. I ( Read more... )

when I should in fact be at school. Long story, but my mom wouldn't let me go to school. I guess she figured it would be best...

Does lonliness come from inside?

Or from your "best frineds" and "boyfriends"

Who leave you wonderin:

Who, what, where, when....

WHY?

Does my lonliness eminate from within me?

Collapsing my dreams of happiness

Closing my relationships

Like doors

Is it me that runs and pushes

And tears away like a scared

Little

Girl that only knows one thing

but she ( Read more... )