What an amazing post...Thank you for your frankness...
I haven't been able to sleep tonight so I decided to sign on...I know all about the "dark, black, mind altering despair and madness"--that's been my life for the past few weeks. My diagnoses tend to fall more with the anxiety disorders--particularly social phobia. But, within the past 2 or so years I've begun dipping in and out of severe depression. Right now is a pretty difficult time. It's so hard for me...I'm so isolated to begin with--making phone calls is so difficult for me, as is a large number of social situations...and right now, with all the sadness, I feel lonelier than ever.
I am trying to reprogram the way I think...but it's so hard. I guess I wanted to comment just to say that I think it's great that you are trying and can be thankful. I'm trying, too. Thanks for posting
I am totally with you on the social phobia. I am 31 years old and someone who used to thrive on my social life, and now crowds and just generally people freak me out. I went out on Sunday for 2 hours and it was painful. I couldnt relax, and had to sit by an exit and at the back. It was a comedy store night and i must have missed all the jokes through just general social anxiety and trying to keep it together and maintain a stay out the house for longer than 45 minutes. It is hard to think positive, I am naturally not like that at all. I have a good friend who is helping me look at things differently. Some days I just want to give up and go back to bed. And some days I do. xxx
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I haven't been able to sleep tonight so I decided to sign on...I know all about the "dark, black, mind altering despair and madness"--that's been my life for the past few weeks. My diagnoses tend to fall more with the anxiety disorders--particularly social phobia. But, within the past 2 or so years I've begun dipping in and out of severe depression. Right now is a pretty difficult time. It's so hard for me...I'm so isolated to begin with--making phone calls is so difficult for me, as is a large number of social situations...and right now, with all the sadness, I feel lonelier than ever.
I am trying to reprogram the way I think...but it's so hard.
I guess I wanted to comment just to say that I think it's great that you are trying and can be thankful. I'm trying, too.
Thanks for posting
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You are such a beautiful person.xxx
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i used to work in a psychiatric hopital for 2 weeks.
and it was the most memorable attachment i ever had.
although sometimes i find my heart keeps breaking when i talk to the patients. not because of the patient but instead the disease process.
and yeah. you added me on LJ.
HELLLLLOOOOOO!
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