tonight i was driving and a song came on. something just is different and i will never be the same. i found myself praying to something that is so much greater than myself. to guide me and give me the strenght i need to live and do the right thing. i saw two movies that made me depresed and cry a little. first one was click which seems liek a happy ( Read more... )

i cried in a movie today. everyone should see click. theres this one point where the emotion is just too much. or maybe it was just me. but i coudlnt hold it back and it was the most unmanliest thing ive ever done. not even like just the knot in my throat but like i had tears streaming down my face all the way down to my chin. my mom looked at me ( Read more... )

reality isnt real. its only a movie that is censored to create whatever kind of ending you wish.

fuck fuck fuck... i got a new card but that means that my mini check card is cancelled too. and i needed to pay to get my car out t oday. great fucking idea quinteh....

golf and stuff is the place to be. i got worn out tonight with my family. golf alone took a long time and then we all went all out in the arcade. i played air hockey with my aunt and now my arm is sore. my uncle was playing this wheel of fortune thing and got like 300 tickets. my mom won gold with a score of like 40 something. i came in a close ( Read more... )

i woke up late for the last week. and im so thrown off. i never want to do anything but ive felt better today than i have in a while. two weeks have never felt so long. i lose track of time and all i have is just work to keep track of. nothing else really matters except now. my purpose is back. now im off to be with family... at least thats the ( Read more... )

I've got my things, I'm good to go ( Read more... )

i was thinking today about how socially i am almost as low as you can go. everyone i see is better than me in almost everything i am. there is always someone who is better at math, a better artist, makes better cds, is better looking, is me only better. i like to think i have a sense of humor but there will always be someone who is funnier than i ( Read more... )

my birthday is in 7 months. i hope i get a pony.

i miss dancing and embarrasing