my introduction :]]
hey everyone.
hmm. so, i don't really get on here a whole ton, in case you hadn't noticed. lol. and i have no idea at all on how to navigate this thing. it confuses me greatly. lol. i really don't know what to say. im random. there you go. like, you seriously have no idea, unless you know me how random i truly am. and i like to ramble. a lot. about basically anything. most usually music though, or youtube videos. im going through this really bored time in my life so all i do most weekends when im at home in between shows and such i watch youtube. a ton of youtubeeee. im quite fond of it. i don't hardly post anything on there, but i love to watch it. and favorite things. i need to delete a bunch of it though. i'm at the 650 favorites limit. it bums me out, i always save a thousand videos during my "phases". and i have many. currently it's all time low. i mean, i've always adored them, idk, this past month its been intense. they're basically all i listen too. i have their bumblebee pick up as my desktop on my laptop right now. wow, that was useless information. then again, most of what i say is rather useless. you'll come to know that if you actually decide to waste enough time of your day to actually read this. i don't see why you would though, noone bothers to do it when i post them on my myspace blog, or when i put them on tumblr. and noone reads my twitter either. basically i just like to talk. a lot. and i hate bugging my friends all the time. i know they love me but im pretty sure i get irritating. this is me giving their heads a break. :]] i really do have lots of opinions and interesting things to say, just nobody really asks. and i don't really feel like sharing usually. im pretty outgoing but in reality im terribly shy. you wouldn't know it just meeting me. its not me being i guess shy about meeting people, just people seeing the real person i am i guess. my friends know the real me. but, eh, even then, i sometimes question wether im completely being myself. for instance, im really tired of not sharing this fact, i think its completely hot when two guys kiss. i really don't understand what the hell is so weird about that, i really don't. two hot guys, making out, turns me on. who really gives a hoot. i tell some people this and they just sort of stare at me, i ask them the following, "what? its okay for a guy to think its hot when two chicks make out but when i mention that i think it hott for two guys, who actually like eachother and are together to make out, its wrong?". that generally shuts them up. then there's the retards who are just there when i mention it who say its a different situation. how? how may i ask are those two scenarios different? i really don't know. and quite frankly it bugs the hell out of me. just saying. grr. now im frustrated. anyways, most of them don't know that i like slash fics. either. particularly band slash, most of which are located on the fearless, hopeless or decaydence labels, or bands usually associated with other bands on those labels. like forever the sickest kids, they all just sort of seem to go together don't you think? idk, maybe its just me. a lot of times it is. im strangee. and i like it that way. i want to be a band manager. really bad. like, you can't comprehend how much i want that. and people are always like, for a chick band though right? ummmm, no. not even close. what kind of fun would that be. but of course, i mention wanting to be manager for a band with dudes, im just a slut that wants to sleep with them all. wrong! im not a slut, im a virgin, thank you very much. it just seems like more fun is all. they just tend to be more laidback. plus, less fighting. i can't deal with girl drama 24/7. i mean, get real. guys get in a fight, they solve it. thats it. problem solved. girls fight, and bam! you have them slinging mikes and drumsticks at eachother onstage. that never ends well. i would particularly love to be manager or at least the co-manager of a little band called my friend the ghost. :]] they make my heart smile. i know dusty from 5000 years ago back when he was in aniston here in sanford. i emailed him and the guys of mftg on myspace around this time of last year and asked them to play at my sweet 16, they said yes. i gave them gas money, put them up for a night and free pizza. raddest kids everrr. they crash at my place whenever they come through NC. dusty is my go to guy. yes, they're all older. why does that matter? it doesn't. exactly. they can make me smile when my other friends fail, plus, i get into all their shows for free ;]] yay for guestlists and being close with the members. alrighty. i do believe i have rambled enough for the night. yes, yes indeed. i told you i liked to ramble didn't i? i wasn't lying. thats all for now. i'll probably be updating this more and more so keep checking back if you feel like hearing me ramble. chances are you can relate. i know i usually do when reading random peoples blogs of them just being well, random and rambling. you usually learn a lot about a person that way. they just sort of let go and say whatever they want. no worries about people judging, or at least, you don't have to see all the judgemental stares and glares rather. im really done now, promise. also! most of these will be posted around 3am. just saying. peace ;]
hmm. so, i don't really get on here a whole ton, in case you hadn't noticed. lol. and i have no idea at all on how to navigate this thing. it confuses me greatly. lol. i really don't know what to say. im random. there you go. like, you seriously have no idea, unless you know me how random i truly am. and i like to ramble. a lot. about basically anything. most usually music though, or youtube videos. im going through this really bored time in my life so all i do most weekends when im at home in between shows and such i watch youtube. a ton of youtubeeee. im quite fond of it. i don't hardly post anything on there, but i love to watch it. and favorite things. i need to delete a bunch of it though. i'm at the 650 favorites limit. it bums me out, i always save a thousand videos during my "phases". and i have many. currently it's all time low. i mean, i've always adored them, idk, this past month its been intense. they're basically all i listen too. i have their bumblebee pick up as my desktop on my laptop right now. wow, that was useless information. then again, most of what i say is rather useless. you'll come to know that if you actually decide to waste enough time of your day to actually read this. i don't see why you would though, noone bothers to do it when i post them on my myspace blog, or when i put them on tumblr. and noone reads my twitter either. basically i just like to talk. a lot. and i hate bugging my friends all the time. i know they love me but im pretty sure i get irritating. this is me giving their heads a break. :]] i really do have lots of opinions and interesting things to say, just nobody really asks. and i don't really feel like sharing usually. im pretty outgoing but in reality im terribly shy. you wouldn't know it just meeting me. its not me being i guess shy about meeting people, just people seeing the real person i am i guess. my friends know the real me. but, eh, even then, i sometimes question wether im completely being myself. for instance, im really tired of not sharing this fact, i think its completely hot when two guys kiss. i really don't understand what the hell is so weird about that, i really don't. two hot guys, making out, turns me on. who really gives a hoot. i tell some people this and they just sort of stare at me, i ask them the following, "what? its okay for a guy to think its hot when two chicks make out but when i mention that i think it hott for two guys, who actually like eachother and are together to make out, its wrong?". that generally shuts them up. then there's the retards who are just there when i mention it who say its a different situation. how? how may i ask are those two scenarios different? i really don't know. and quite frankly it bugs the hell out of me. just saying. grr. now im frustrated. anyways, most of them don't know that i like slash fics. either. particularly band slash, most of which are located on the fearless, hopeless or decaydence labels, or bands usually associated with other bands on those labels. like forever the sickest kids, they all just sort of seem to go together don't you think? idk, maybe its just me. a lot of times it is. im strangee. and i like it that way. i want to be a band manager. really bad. like, you can't comprehend how much i want that. and people are always like, for a chick band though right? ummmm, no. not even close. what kind of fun would that be. but of course, i mention wanting to be manager for a band with dudes, im just a slut that wants to sleep with them all. wrong! im not a slut, im a virgin, thank you very much. it just seems like more fun is all. they just tend to be more laidback. plus, less fighting. i can't deal with girl drama 24/7. i mean, get real. guys get in a fight, they solve it. thats it. problem solved. girls fight, and bam! you have them slinging mikes and drumsticks at eachother onstage. that never ends well. i would particularly love to be manager or at least the co-manager of a little band called my friend the ghost. :]] they make my heart smile. i know dusty from 5000 years ago back when he was in aniston here in sanford. i emailed him and the guys of mftg on myspace around this time of last year and asked them to play at my sweet 16, they said yes. i gave them gas money, put them up for a night and free pizza. raddest kids everrr. they crash at my place whenever they come through NC. dusty is my go to guy. yes, they're all older. why does that matter? it doesn't. exactly. they can make me smile when my other friends fail, plus, i get into all their shows for free ;]] yay for guestlists and being close with the members. alrighty. i do believe i have rambled enough for the night. yes, yes indeed. i told you i liked to ramble didn't i? i wasn't lying. thats all for now. i'll probably be updating this more and more so keep checking back if you feel like hearing me ramble. chances are you can relate. i know i usually do when reading random peoples blogs of them just being well, random and rambling. you usually learn a lot about a person that way. they just sort of let go and say whatever they want. no worries about people judging, or at least, you don't have to see all the judgemental stares and glares rather. im really done now, promise. also! most of these will be posted around 3am. just saying. peace ;]