Growth, and a request for help. (ETA comments)

[londubh]

So, as you may know, I'm all sorts of f*ed in the head. All sorts.

The fun bit is that most everything that's wrong with me derives from one problem: I don't feel I'm worth anything.

Now, i know that's not true, but that doesn't mean i Believe that it's not true. As such, a good friend has requested I write myself a list of proof that i Am indeed a

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[bashful_dwarf]

Well, I only met you once, a few years back... but you were interesting enough then that I've been reading your LJ since.

So from a virtual stranger's perspective.

* You're kind enough not to blow of a complete stranger at a party, and instead talk with her some. (That's pretty nice... and rare.)
* You don't seem to make random wild assumptions about things - instead you think through your positions, and make rational arguments to support them. You also handle opposing viewpoints in a polite, and responsive manner. (See your posts on politics.)

I could probably add more to the list, but I've been up for 17 hours. 8 of those hours were spent attempting to teach middle school students how to solve for x, and the majority of the rest of the time was spent grading related efforts. Thusly, brain = extra crispy.

[londubh]

Ooh! That's another thing under the whole ethical thing: When i had to make someone drink, i picked the other person who wasn't drinking something alcoholic. And i didn't take advantage of the cute drunk girl who was practically asking for it. (just as well, she & the guy she found that night make an excellent couple)

[taverus]

You're also a fun guy to talk to.

My friends wouldn't have invited you over if it wasn't a sincere invitation. They are even better judges of character than I am.

Don't discount the value of your loyalty. It;'s an awesome trait.

You and I don't see eye to eye on many things, but you're very respectful of my perspective, that's huge!

You came out to visit with me just because I was in seattle.

You've listened to my rejection problems and have supported me.

But more importantly than all this. I'm just plain fond of ya. You're my friend and that means something to me. It makes you important in my book.

[lylassandra]

You're fun.

You care.

You try.

[londubh]

speaking of which, i Tried to see you when i was down in february, but I almost ended up with a tattoo instead, what's up with that?

[lylassandra]

It's a long and not particularly pleasant story. The short version is that the owners refused to renew the lease and we had to close.

[londubh]

oh! i'm sorry. *hug*

[evilprodigy]

It's surprisingly hard to find people who take the risk of letting themselves care about things -- it's much easier to be cowardly -- but you happen to be one of them.

[naeros]

Well, reading the comments I'd say you have some good friends, and that makes you interesting and a good person =P

Also, as they have noted, you don't impose your opinions and always try to understand why others think the way they do, even when your opinion is the exact opposite.

And you really care about what makes you a good person, what you can do to improve. That means you don't settle with the old "that's the way I am" as an excuse for everything. You know you can change the way you are and so try to be a better person.