i hate it ... im stupid .. i shouldnt have got so upset but it was just something hit me and i dont know how else to explain it .. i wanna say im sorry .. but i dont know how... and it seems so hard .. theres something missing and i want it back so bad ... i wish i could take it all back .. start over .. i hated the way i treated you it wasnt at ( Read more... )

yesterday I hung out with sarina and giselle .. too much fun ! We havent hung out in like forever so were planning to go to the movies i think friday .. that should be fun.... they make me laugh alot .. anyways we spent the night catching up on things and talking about things ... and so then well probably go up to UCI to visit giselle like i think ( Read more... )

So yesterday I started school ,I was a little nervous but then my brother was like .. nobody knows eachother so it wont even matter ! And he was right ..so I had my first class and it was CHILD DEVELOPMENT 10 ..I LOVE IT .. its so good.. working with kids and learning how their minds work and all this other stuff ..i love it ... so im definetly ( Read more... )

I SAW JOEL TODAY !! I went out with marquis silvia and vanessa ..being its vanessas last day here ... booo .... it was fucken fun ... got icecreme at coldstone ... gave a tip and they sang ..well not really but it was nice still !!! Ill finish updating later !!

So I havent talked to him ..since saturday I think .. he hasnt called me .. booooo!! This sucks and his birthday is like tomorrow ! So basically I havent talked to him at all ... and i miss him ... boo ... i hate this ....and hes been on and he hasnt talked to me ..NOTHING .. I think he thinks Im mad..i wasnt mad I think I was just disappointed ( Read more... )

Ive given up

Im tired of trying to please you

It never did work

Youre never satisfied

You always say its not good enough

You expect more

Everything I give its not good enough

Its never good enough

Im never good enough

I try and I try

But no matter what I do

I'l never be good enough for you

Or anyone else

So Ive given up on myself

Because I' ( Read more... )

OMG .. I HAD FUN TODAY ..but someone let me down who i never expected.. im sad .. i cant believe it ..LYNNA CALL ME ..i miss you a bunches .. i went to visit you but you werent working today .. boo ... but ill try to visit when you are working ... bye for now

IM GONNA FORGET YOU EVER EXISTED AND THAT STARTS BY ERASING YOU FROM EVERYTHING IVE EVER WRITTEN ! YOU ARE THE WORST PERSON IVE EVER MET AND MAYBE ONE DAY YOULL FEEL WHAT I FELT

Wow I havent written in this thing in a while ...well hs is over so thats one thing .. umm i start school in august and I ve just been hanging out with people .. i dont want to be those people that say they will stay in touch but dont ... so yeah ..thats about it .. hmm oh and like everyone else ( Read more... )

BEN DONT FORGET MY FREAKEN MOVIE !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I WANNA WATCH  IT TOO !!