NEGATIVE

[lonelylabrat]

i called my doctor thursday and i tested negative on my HIV test. thank you all for your support and assuring me that that would be the result.
the only thing that kind of sucks is that even though i obviously dont want AIDS, a positive test would have proven to me that i was indeed raped, because my memory of the experience is quite foggy.

Comments

[mcpia]

I think you're actually far too forgiving. It's fucking easy to change what you say, espcialyl if she's a staff person, in a hospital. I'd drag her ass over hot coals but thats just me.

Take care darling.

[lonelylabrat]

thank you. and read my aboce comment to Cori (:
the truth is, there are a lot of amazingly wonderful people working in the system as well as the ignorant fucks, and i prefer to celebrate them than complain about the sucky ones. but yeah, she was way out of line. i often question myself and my motives and i do forgive too easy. i just have a hard time not forming resentments if i don't forgive, and resent means to re-feel and i dont care to waste my time and energy re-feeling a time that some idiot made me feel like shit.
ya know what i mean?
anyway, thanks for the love, love. i hope you are doing ok. peace

[mcpia]

Yeah I know, I agree wholeheartedly. Just. Made me mad, I thought she was a right wanker. I thought, bloody hell. Thats all anyone needs.

I think you're cute anyway.

[lonelylabrat]

totally a wanker. heh.
that word makes me blush. especially when said or written by a cute australian. i have issues maybe

[anonymous]

what a fucking jackass that bitch is.

seriously some people go work in psych wards because they are too crazy and emotionally inappropriate to behave correctly in the real world.

that shit is not your fault. don't buy into her fucked up worldview where it is ok to follow and touch someone who doesn't want to be touched, to call them names. she's a powerhungry little shit.

anon so i dont' out myself for knowing about this stuff. sorry dude.

[lonelylabrat]

thank you. you can read the above couple comments to see more of whats up with Betty.
i'm sorry you have to be anonymous. i don't mind at all, but i'm sorry that whereever you are at, you don't feel safe having people know you have had psych issues.
it really sucks how horribly judgemental and stigmatizing the world can be about mental illness or people who have been in psych wards. we can be treated like "leapers" (in terms of the bible, i'm not prejudice against people with lepracy)
anyway, hopefully things will change and soon.
peace

[jacq22]

So glad about the test results Jymi, that doctor or whatever she was is really a messed up person herself, I think she is the one with a problem! She was not helping one bit with her actions. Unprofessional!!! and a bitch obviously. Happy you have survived, keep going. J

[lonelylabrat]

thank you. (: