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Soo... my party last night - need to update whilst it's still fresh in my mind.
Bad things.... firstly, the weather. That sucked! It wouldn't stop raining on and off. But it was alright anyway, we were just inside when it rained and then sometimes out when it was dry!
I heard from Kerry how Emily was bitching about Katie and me on Katie's birthday and how she found it funny that it was Katie's birthday yet she and the guys hadn't said happy birthday or even spoke to her. How can someone find that funny? Fair enough, possibly if you don't speak to someone, don't get them something for their birthday, but don't feel good about making them feel crap =O She also said she was gonna come to the party just to see "how shit" it was. Lovely. Thank f*ck she didn't come!
Also, I drank loads but was pretty sober. I mean, I wouldn't have been able to drive. I'd had most of a bottle of apple sourz, lots and lots of wine, some smirnoff ices, and some cocktails. Oooh and some fruit lager. I blatantly can't have been sober, but I was pretty ok. Standing up, conversing fine, no drunken mistakes, probably just a bit more sociable. Katie was really drunk lol. Another bad thing? The Sams. They turned up. They were drunk (probably off like one can!) They stormed into the house, into the lounge, popped all the balloons we'd spent ages blowing up, spilt beer everywhere, and watched Top Gear. They sobered up a bit and were alright I spose later on, cept Sam S constantly calling me a lesbian. Dunno how I'm a lesbian but hey.
Oooh, and the worst thing? When we went to sleep (I knew we'd end up staying there) I wasn't allowed to get my stuff, or have like even a blanket or jumper. So I got no sleep, because I froze to death, and I was bored out of my brains. What was I supposed to do? I was on the sofa... Mark and Charlotte were asleep in there, everyone else was in beds - Turner and Gemma slept in his car cos it was so cold. Pah. One of the worst times of my life lol. I was knackered, had a headache, and yet I couldn't sleep cos I was shivering so much.
But anyway...
Good things =) much more positive! I had 2 bottles of Apple Sourz, yey! And I hid one so I got to keep it woo =D. And I did have a really good time, all my friends came and they were lovely and it was a lot of fun. The chat we had on the stairs was ace! Really random, all about guys/girls liking and randomness like that.
But then... Jon. Gah. If you know me, you'll know I used to like Jon (Emily's ex!) but I stopped liking him gradually because he blatantly showed no interest and seemed a bit of a moody bugger to me. Anyway, he was really nice last night, and actually started flirting (I'm not talking subtle, I mean hand up my leg and grabbing my ass etc). What the hell?! What on earth?! How can someone screw with my brain so much? Gah. I was sat on the stairs - Mark had his arm round me and Jon kept touching me.. (sounds worse than it is) - and I was liek ARGH ARGH I used to like Jon and I like Mark but I can't do anything with either of them cos they're Emily's exes and argh argh argh!
Anyway... Jen had to take Sam and Sam home cos they were really drunk. And Jon had to go with them. So that flirting kinda came to nothing. Think that that will probably be put down to alcohol on his part, specially since I did nothing more than hold his hand haha - *innocent*
Then... about 20 people kept saying me and Mark made a cute couple. Which was like ARGH - cos I like him, but I was like no - we're not a couple! But I was sure Mark was flirting, which is what was confusing. I'm crap at stuff like this with guys, because the last thing I wanted to do was flirt if he wasn't flirting etc. We did a lot a lot of playfighting, which has resulted in me being very bruised today haha. We were cuddling etc on the sofa, and yeah with hindsight this is obvious flirting, but I've cuddled him before etc. So... anyways, we kissed. Quite a lot. And did some other stuff - we didn't sleep together, I made sure of that. I had no desire to sleep with him on my friend's sofa, when we weren't even together, that's really not me. But anyway... it was really nice.
The trouble is, I'm dreading "The Talk" we're gonna have to have at some point now. I know I can put it off till after my holiday, but we're gonna have to do it. And the real problem is, what to say. I mean, I decided last night that I'm fine with nothing happening with Mark; it's too fricking late now really. Anyway, I've kinda ruined any chance of me and Emily ever being friends again now - she'll hate me for this *Rolls eyes* Don't think Katie will be too impressed either, I think she really likes Mark. But I can't help it! It's stupid, I wouldn't have got with Mark anyway - it sucks but I'm not secure enough to follow Emily, who I know is skinnier, prettier, has a nicer figure etc and is a lot more experienced.
I don't even know what my point is, I spose there's nothing I can really do about it. I guess I'm kinda worried that Katie's annoyed with me - I mean, I was a bit pissed off with her, but I can let that drop, no problem! I just hope she's alright with me, hopefully she will be by the time she wakes up! =)
But...
Meh.
Bad things.... firstly, the weather. That sucked! It wouldn't stop raining on and off. But it was alright anyway, we were just inside when it rained and then sometimes out when it was dry!
I heard from Kerry how Emily was bitching about Katie and me on Katie's birthday and how she found it funny that it was Katie's birthday yet she and the guys hadn't said happy birthday or even spoke to her. How can someone find that funny? Fair enough, possibly if you don't speak to someone, don't get them something for their birthday, but don't feel good about making them feel crap =O She also said she was gonna come to the party just to see "how shit" it was. Lovely. Thank f*ck she didn't come!
Also, I drank loads but was pretty sober. I mean, I wouldn't have been able to drive. I'd had most of a bottle of apple sourz, lots and lots of wine, some smirnoff ices, and some cocktails. Oooh and some fruit lager. I blatantly can't have been sober, but I was pretty ok. Standing up, conversing fine, no drunken mistakes, probably just a bit more sociable. Katie was really drunk lol. Another bad thing? The Sams. They turned up. They were drunk (probably off like one can!) They stormed into the house, into the lounge, popped all the balloons we'd spent ages blowing up, spilt beer everywhere, and watched Top Gear. They sobered up a bit and were alright I spose later on, cept Sam S constantly calling me a lesbian. Dunno how I'm a lesbian but hey.
Oooh, and the worst thing? When we went to sleep (I knew we'd end up staying there) I wasn't allowed to get my stuff, or have like even a blanket or jumper. So I got no sleep, because I froze to death, and I was bored out of my brains. What was I supposed to do? I was on the sofa... Mark and Charlotte were asleep in there, everyone else was in beds - Turner and Gemma slept in his car cos it was so cold. Pah. One of the worst times of my life lol. I was knackered, had a headache, and yet I couldn't sleep cos I was shivering so much.
But anyway...
Good things =) much more positive! I had 2 bottles of Apple Sourz, yey! And I hid one so I got to keep it woo =D. And I did have a really good time, all my friends came and they were lovely and it was a lot of fun. The chat we had on the stairs was ace! Really random, all about guys/girls liking and randomness like that.
But then... Jon. Gah. If you know me, you'll know I used to like Jon (Emily's ex!) but I stopped liking him gradually because he blatantly showed no interest and seemed a bit of a moody bugger to me. Anyway, he was really nice last night, and actually started flirting (I'm not talking subtle, I mean hand up my leg and grabbing my ass etc). What the hell?! What on earth?! How can someone screw with my brain so much? Gah. I was sat on the stairs - Mark had his arm round me and Jon kept touching me.. (sounds worse than it is) - and I was liek ARGH ARGH I used to like Jon and I like Mark but I can't do anything with either of them cos they're Emily's exes and argh argh argh!
Anyway... Jen had to take Sam and Sam home cos they were really drunk. And Jon had to go with them. So that flirting kinda came to nothing. Think that that will probably be put down to alcohol on his part, specially since I did nothing more than hold his hand haha - *innocent*
Then... about 20 people kept saying me and Mark made a cute couple. Which was like ARGH - cos I like him, but I was like no - we're not a couple! But I was sure Mark was flirting, which is what was confusing. I'm crap at stuff like this with guys, because the last thing I wanted to do was flirt if he wasn't flirting etc. We did a lot a lot of playfighting, which has resulted in me being very bruised today haha. We were cuddling etc on the sofa, and yeah with hindsight this is obvious flirting, but I've cuddled him before etc. So... anyways, we kissed. Quite a lot. And did some other stuff - we didn't sleep together, I made sure of that. I had no desire to sleep with him on my friend's sofa, when we weren't even together, that's really not me. But anyway... it was really nice.
The trouble is, I'm dreading "The Talk" we're gonna have to have at some point now. I know I can put it off till after my holiday, but we're gonna have to do it. And the real problem is, what to say. I mean, I decided last night that I'm fine with nothing happening with Mark; it's too fricking late now really. Anyway, I've kinda ruined any chance of me and Emily ever being friends again now - she'll hate me for this *Rolls eyes* Don't think Katie will be too impressed either, I think she really likes Mark. But I can't help it! It's stupid, I wouldn't have got with Mark anyway - it sucks but I'm not secure enough to follow Emily, who I know is skinnier, prettier, has a nicer figure etc and is a lot more experienced.
I don't even know what my point is, I spose there's nothing I can really do about it. I guess I'm kinda worried that Katie's annoyed with me - I mean, I was a bit pissed off with her, but I can let that drop, no problem! I just hope she's alright with me, hopefully she will be by the time she wakes up! =)
But...
Meh.