Comments | lonestarguard: The end of myself...take me there.

lonestarguard

The end of myself...take me there.

Aug 29, 2007 01:51

JESUS CHRIST HE DIED FOR YOU!!!

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still? anonymous September 25 2007, 03:06:43 UTC

I know you're overseas, but I wanted to let you know that I've been doing some reading - back over the entries that you've written, comments made by me on them, and our responses back. I deleted my LiveJournal, so I don't have those entries to go back to anymore...which might be a blessing in disguise now that I think about it.
All this rambling to say that while I'm certainly not ready to fully trust you again, I'm okay with the occasional impersonal contact. I don't know if you'll even get this message. Nonetheless, I'm trying to sort out all the crazy things/feelings/emotions inside me from when we broke up - I can just now look back at it without really hurting...and I still cringe/feel sad when I think about it.
I have no idea why I felt prompted to read back through your journal or even leave a message. I guess I was wondering if you still thought of me or loved me at all. I'm scared of you and your words, so this makes no sense to me, but here I am. I really don't know what purpose this is serving, so I'm gonna go. Sorry for

Re: still? lonestarguard October 4 2007, 19:16:51 UTC

I am sure you thought I was mot going to write you back. I did not knowif I wanted to for a while but after some talks with people here, they encouraged me that it was a good idea. They helped me see that if I did not respond that, that would not be fair to you. I know it must have been hard for you to express how you felt, or think you feel, and being vulnerable enough to ask me to do the same. Ironically last week right before you wrote me I was finally able say to myself that I was completely over you, but now that I am here thinking about you again I suppose I should express my feelings with you. You have asked me how I feel about you, and if I still love you, but I do ot even know how to answer that question when I do not know who you are ( ... )

anonymous October 5 2007, 04:18:45 UTC

Fair enough ( ... )

callous much? anonymous February 9 2008, 02:13:50 UTC

I don't know if you even check this thing anymore, but I couldn't find you on facebook. I wanted to apologize for being so callous in my last couple of posts (see above) and for throwing a pity party. I can see now how bitter and hurt I was, and I'm embarrassed of my words ( ... )

Re: callous much? lonestarguard May 24 2008, 14:51:47 UTC

I was praying last night for you, and God was like check livejournal, it had to be like a 45 second prayer. Then I was like I am going to bed and I dont have internet here but I will do it in the morning when I walk down to the castle ( ... )