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[lonestarslp]

I missed Will acutely this weekend. We went to see the Christmas decorations on his grave, which really upset B. Yesterday, I spent a lot of time at church. We did a training session for some of our youth staff and volunteers. As I was telling my story, I couldn't look at the youth minister who was there when Will died, because I knew I would cry.

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'Tis the season...

[jubal51394]

For memories and flashbacks... It's only a month. It just seems like forever. This too shall pass. Next year will be a little easier and the year after that easier still... It's my12th Christmas without Johanna and it's a lot easier now... but not easy. We really wouldn't want it to be real easy though. Would we?

Re: 'Tis the season...

[lonestarslp]

No, we don't want it to be too easy. Because every time it gets easier, I feel more guilty.

Re: 'Tis the season...

[jubal51394]

I know the feeling. Somehow... we equate the depth of our suffering to a measure of our love for them. Like it could ever be measured. *rolls eyes* Pretty stupid, huh?

[theodicy]

Our Greg loved Christmas, which makes it very hard for me. I'm hoping the Kiddo will mitigate the pain somewhat - concentrating on her children helped my sister - but I think the quieter, even melancholy moments during the season are valid and have their place.

[lonestarslp]

Last year and this year, I somehow feel Will inside me in December more than any time.

[a1an]

every moment of life is a blessing

[lonestarslp]

That is true even though it doesn't feel like it sometimes.

[a1an]

sorry I cant help but think or you and Will and your family when I hear of Juri Fischer, the young (25 y.o.) Detroit red Wing hockey player who collapsed with cardiac arrest on the bench three weeks ago. he was resuscitated but unsure if he will ever play hockey again... even his story makes me want to appreciate the life I have