Lately ive been learning alot from the world, mainly that god put a lot of stupid idiots on this place. My true utopian would be to move far far away from derry/chester/hampstead with my boyfriend. i cannot stand the fucking douche bags in these towns, its like im surround by a bunch of lunatics with their heads cut off. You're all so caught up in ( Read more... )

I cant even believe this. i get called out of the shower saying its urgent, and i hear brock say it and i cant believe it. i cant believe this i cant believe this. steve what the fuck what the fuck why couldnt you just pull through. why wasnt hope enough, i cant believe this. i want to cry but i cant, im numb. my body, its non-existant. steve, oh ( Read more... )

a lot of shit has been happening. i cant believe hes gone, i just really cant believe it. it hasnt hit me yet. my boyfriend cant even believe it either. they used to be good friends, thats so fucked up. i cant believe a psychic told him he was going to die young a month ago, i cant believe that he had a girlfriend and she watched him die. i really ( Read more... )

im alone right now, and i hate it so much. i have to watch saving private ryan for us history but i have no time, and im not in the mood. i wish my life wasnt so complicated. i know sometimes its partically my fault but i just hate it and i wish it would stop. i wish things were perfect but they are far from it.
I wish I wasn't so invisable ( Read more... )

today is early saturdayyy. yesterday was so great, i had no band so i spent the whole day with my love. we wasted our money on tons of fast food and it obviously was worth while. i love that boy. school is getting stressful, i have sats in a few weeks and i havent studied for them yet. im always so busy between band school and boyfriend i have no ( Read more... )

its been a while since ive been on this fool thing. all i can say is, i cannot wait for death cab concert on october 17! its going to be syckkk. im so tired and tomorrow i have to risk getting towed for fucking band. lame eh? i really cant stand having band for half my life, im getting sick of it. im getting sick also. ugh. i hate school, i hate ( Read more... )

today is saturday and i have band at nine but i wanted to wake up at 7, so here i am. im pretty tired, what started out as bad yesterday turned out to be really fun. i love brock with all my heart and he makes me so happy. he brings out the part of me that no one else does, he makes me feel comfortable, he makes me feel like someone special. im ( Read more... )

welll a couple of days ago i arrived back to my home land. i was getting home sick, and one-person sick. that person would be brock. but now finally im in his arms once again and im happy as ever. band camp started yesterday and it is officially hell, not like it ever was anything but that. oh well, next week is going to be worse. and then before ( Read more... )

so tomorrow im going to aruba for a week. i have to wake up at 3:30 in the morning and leave. my parents are going to find the cigarette burn on my seat in my car. ugh. all this vacation is going to be is hell because im going to be away from the constant schedule i so love. i am going to miss my boyfriend terribly and i dont know what the hell im ( Read more... )

my birthday is in 5 minutes, im excited... woo. im going to be 17, wow. thats one more year older than 16 and old year younger than 18. its nothing, whatever. im going to hang out with my boyfriend and hes treating me to a nice day. i know hell treat me like a princess, i cant wait. ive been eating out everyday and im beginning to get sick of it. i ( Read more... )