looking for something thats not there,

[longestofwinter]

i really hate this time of year. i am constantly reminded of my own loneliness and it really sucks. everywhere i go i am reminded of beauty and love, and i haven't found that in years. yes i have found God's love. thats amazing believe me, but i still yearn for a woman to love me, and me to love her. i thought i probley would've found love again by

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[stretchyourmind]

in your pattern you mentioned, number 2 was on repeat with me for a long time. its so miserable.

[longestofwinter]

it sucks right now, i go through moments where i'm fine and idk its really lame right now cause i keep remembering all this crap that happend. probley next week i'll be fine. i just have really lame memories of what happend this month and so i freak and get weird. but number 2 goes on a pattern for a long time with me too, then it switches to number 3 after a few months.