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I honestly don't even know how i feel about these pictures. I have been obsessing over how i look lately and every single time i look in the mirror- i go for every flaw i have. I wish i saw what i really looked like. I honestly don't know. All i see is fat all over my body. the only thing i think is kind of small is my arms and my wrist and that is only some of the time.
i fought two urges today though-cutting and taking laxs I was proud of myself for that.
i went grocery shopping today with my mom. who would have thought it would be so hard for me to decide what to eat. i am living off the same things basically- fruits and veggies, granola bars and 35calorie whole grain bread with sugar free jelly.
MY Ultimate goal this month is to lose 8 lbs!I need to be at 100 lbs by the end of the month. i NEED to do this. I would even settle for 5 lbs. I feel so disgusting i need a change.
How are all my lovly ladies doing?
XOXO
Love you alll<3