Comments | longingtobethin: I Eat Terrible Foods

desire_billy in longingtobethin

I Eat Terrible Foods

Oct 12, 2009 14:42

As long as I can remember I've always craved fatty foods. I would lie and steal to get them, even from a very young age. My mother used to holler at me that all I cared about was filling my gut. She used to with hold food because of the rolls on your gutI'm 40 now and weigh 300 pounds. I'm scared. I know I need professional help but I can not ( Read more... )

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matanai October 13 2009, 01:36:14 UTC

I absolutely cannot have junk food of any kind in my house or I eat it like it's the last food I'll ever see... I used to waste a lot of money on fast food too, but the wasting money had more of an effect on me than binging did, so I stopped that just due to monetary reasons. Save it up for something nice!

desire_billy October 15 2009, 17:13:32 UTC

I spent $204 so far this month on food to binge on. Actually $108 of that is overdraft charges for writing checks for the food thinking money would go in before the checks.

I could totally use that money for my kids. The guilt is overwhelming.

control_me7 October 14 2009, 00:45:42 UTC

I'm sorry to hear about the hard times you've had. I hope you can find some support here, and I wish you all the best. I know you can do it!

desire_billy October 15 2009, 17:11:48 UTC

Thank you.

jeongyunsgirl October 14 2009, 01:54:40 UTC

just so you dont have to feel like youre the only one...
sometimes I wait till my boyfriends asleep so I can binge or Ill go get change from his car so I can buy candy bars from a vending machine. If he ever found out Id DIE

desire_billy October 15 2009, 17:11:04 UTC

One time my husband pulled out my night stand to look for the TV remote and found a HUGE pile of empty candy wrappers. I was mortified. He cussed and hollered at me for making such a mess. Glad he is gone.

jeongyunsgirl October 15 2009, 17:43:36 UTC

I feel for you. Im always hiding wrappers and I recently had to go to the grocery store to rebuy things I should have eaten (cookies, chex mix bars). I really hope I can stop binging, it drains my energy, self esteem, and bank account

desire_billy October 16 2009, 00:06:36 UTC

Yep me too. I spent over $200 so THIS month on food to binge on. They Pizza guys know me to well.

kolizeon October 15 2009, 12:53:34 UTC

Nice to meet you.

You need a professional therapy. There are many free or discounted resources people with your diagnosis, and also for people going through a divorce.

If you are working on a degree, your school probably offers counseling services or can refer you to a good counselor.

And of course, we're here to support you as well. <3

desire_billy October 15 2009, 17:09:35 UTC

There are many free or discounted resources people with your diagnosis, and also for people going through a divorce.

Really? I'd love to get therapy. Do you know where or where I could start to look?

My school is an online course so no counselors.

Thank you!