i know, and i cant stand it. knowing doesnt mean i know what to do.

i dont do deep sad posts anymore, so i will take out the emotion, and add an uncomfortable attempt at humor to the subject.

a long time ago someone sent me an email with a picture of a kitty that said, "every time you masturbate, a kitten dies!"
i found this hilarious at the time.
now ( Read more... )

i am sick. Yucky Tonsils is my official self diagnosis ( Read more... )

i do what i do and it is all i can do, including changing peoples perceptions about what i dont do ( Read more... )

i used to post on LJ up to four times a day. those were the days. My journal will turn 4 next month, the majority of my drunken college days all kept on record. and, as usual, my thankful list ( Read more... )

in other news:
I have rearranged my office. i like it better. i was told it made me look more like i was "the boss".  Well, i am not the janitor.....
I have an eye infection,which i wanted to make note of here so i can start to see if it does indeed happen every year at this time as i was told.
anyway, this means i had to go to the doctor, spend 90 ( Read more... )

i wonder if it is the norm that as you get older, your posts to journals go down. Is it because the teen angst leaves ( Read more... )

i am sick. i spent most of the day at home.

i wore my costume yesterday, i was half angel and half devil-- an angil. my damn horn kept falling off which must mean i am pure goodness (cough cough).

i am sad "Weeds" had the season ender already, and to leave us hanging with that is torture.

i may never know, but damn if i dont try.

there were left over crickets making noise it the grass when i did chores tonight. i liked that, it was like a little bit of frosting left after youve eaten all the cake. summer is the best time. i stood there and listened to the sound of the horses eating thier oats in unison. there are some noises that are more quiet than if it were silent, and ( Read more... )

it tried to flurry today.
i wish i was not so gemini, or my brain hemispheres didnt seem so disconnected, or something. i wish that.
i took the naughty sex quizes. i remember i was that person once. yeah. she is lurking around.

why am i up at 8am, listening to Susan Werner and browsing the internet? yup, i had to do a damn overnight. Mindy is the only thing that can make me smile at 6am.
I am going to take the day off since i already worked my eight hours for this day. screw it.
a nap before ellen, then coffee and a trip to the farm store, oh yes.