Well dearest darlingest amy. Here goes. Kristina and I are back together, I love her dearly. I suppose you know that though. In addition I'm just all scared what with her graduating and going off to college though she promises me nothing will change and that she loves me(which I do not doubt). And I was just in a reminescence of "what if's" and ( Read more... )

Oh what day's I have had. Filled with love, laughter, light, depression, fear, darkness beyond imagination (which I almost just spelled with an "e" becuase I'm strange) and reminescence. My Kristina is my love and so important to me right now. As is my Alicia, she is the my best friend. I've been wondering what would have happened if things had ( Read more... )

A beautiful weekend. I love Alicia and Bob and Dan and Sarah. Visiting WVU was a success. I hate my fucking parents because they think they know everything but in actuality have no idea what is going on with my life. That in itself pisses me off. And for that I hate them. but life is sweet and kind.

What is it with me and things going well lately? It's a little bit weird, okay so it's a lot bit weird. More time has been spent with my Josh. Today my sister and I went to a Yogalates class then kickboxing. I am sore. And tired. But happy in myself that I took initiative to actually go. YAY! Plans with Alicia on friday becuase I love her and can ( Read more... )

Things have been going so well lately, I'm almost afraid to write and break whatever good luck spell has been woven. The show is over tho. I cried. I cried because I realized it was the last show I would ever do with Jp. Or with Brad. I have been doing 2-3 show a year with JP ever since I was in 7th grade. I am really going to miss that. And Brad ( Read more... )

It's spring again! I am feeling so much better than I have for a long time. Nanna and I are better...it's getting easier to be with her, I think it's mutually easier lately. Josh and I are alright, I dig him. My depression is all vanished! HORRAH! It feels like...good times again. Good times pre-Jay. The good times when I wasn't under anyones ( Read more... )

A tech week! FINALLY!! I miss my FCPAC tech weeks...we always had so much fun! *sniffle* I miss my FCPACians. You guys were always my back up force, a safety net if you will. I love you guys so much ( Read more... )

Anna and I are over, complete. Our time together is through. To her...I was too much to understand. The healing I needed...she could not provide. I drove her to the edge and for that...I can never forgive myself. She never had to take care of me but she did. I didn't realize how much my problems effected her, how much she took upon herslef. How ( Read more... )

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So...yeah. Long time. For those of you who don't know and wish to my life was fucked up by a series of events culminating in my walking out of my house. But fear naught. I am living with Karen in Myersville, my parents and I are okay again (acutally better than before) and I am as of today no longer grounded. Still don't have the cell phone back ( Read more... )