and I am done with my graceless heart

[lookingforwater]

Right.

Okay.

We’re gonna try this again.

I’ve started a tumblr for like, poetry and pictures and suchlike, because why not. And since I already have the alert on my google calendar to update my queue once a week, I may as well parley that into some kind of regular update. Not for you all, mind; for me, because I kind of miss this, all the shouting

Comments

[danalwyn]

I think you seem to have figured yourself, and life, out much more than many people I know who are in their thirties. You know a lot of who you are, and a lot of where you can go from here, and possibly most importantly a lot of what you want out of life. So although it's cold comfort given the debt and the job prospects, you're not doing half-bad as a human being, and that may be what matters. I'm glad you figured a lot of yourself out.

I wish you luck. I really, really hope things turn out alright for you.

(Also, there's nothing wrong with liking Kenshin, no matter how old you are. Everyone has their own nostalgia).

[lookingforwater]

I guess so, re: the fandom thing, but recently I've been aware of how much flak fandom gets from outside fandom circles - because omg, hdu get invested in fictional properties! esp. fictional properties that are not adult and sophisticated! - and I've reached the point where instead of engaging with people on the issue, I'd rather just say "Yep, I'm an immature woman-child with emotional issues. What of it?" because it's easier and I'm tired of justifying things that make me happy

[danalwyn]

I don't think there's any point in justifying the things that make us happy, after all, they make us happy, and anyone who doesn't understand that, or can't figure out how it could make you happy usually isn't worth talking to. And I don't think it has anything to do with meaning, after all you can find deep meaning on the back of a milk carton if you can spin it out well enough. Figuring what is what seems to tell us more about ourselves then it whatever we're speaking of. If others can't understand that, usually they aren't worth talking to